I shakily touched the cold handle, and pulled it down, I could just imagine my dads reactio.
"He did what?" He would yell, his face as red as my own, only in a different way, more in anger than embrassment.
"I could just not tell him." I whipsperd to myself as I walked through the door, only I thought I whispered, but I guess I was wrong.
"Tell me what hun?"
Oh no, there was no getting out of it, he had heard me, I had to tell him. But I couldn't, I couldn't re-live what had just happened, I never wanted to re-live it again. Only I knew I would have to, everyone at school would be talking about it. It would surely be the hot topic for weeks. I knew I had to realise that it had happened, that this wasn't all just a bad dream but I wanted to hang onto those hopes just a little while longer, and telling my dad would just make it a whole lot more real.
"Um, nothing. Have to go, got loads of homework tonight." I said, the words raced out of my mouth, I just couldn't wait to get away. And with that I ran upstairs, into my room, slammed the door, curled into a ball and cried. Not even changing out of my uniform.
It ran back through my head. The people, the stares, the words and the tears.
The argument was only silly, I guessed it would last a day and we would go back to being best friends again, like we always were. Jack and me. But it didn't, in fact it just got worse. We were arguing about my boyfriend, well ex now I suppose, I was cuddled with him and Jack didn't like it, now I know why. We've had arguments about him before, he always told me Austin wasn't good enough for me, that he doesn't understand why I'm with him. I always used to yell back that I loved Austin and I didn't care what he thought. I guess he just couldn't hold in the secret anymore.
"He's cheating on you!" He yelled, his face red with anger after the argument only seconds before.
I stared, Alice stared, Charlie stared, the teacher stared, everyone stared... Austin stared.
My mouth opened and closed, words wanted to come out, but the right one's just couldn't. The words turned into tears, fighting to get through, but I wouldn't let them.
"I'm sorr-" Started Austin.
"Don't even speak to her." Sceamed Alice, cuting Austin off mid-sentace.
I still hadn't moved, not even blinked, still trying to register what had been said.
"Melody, I'm sorry, okay, I'm sorry. It was just a bit of fun, it meant nothing , she meant nothing." He pleaded.
"Hey!" Said a tiny voice in the corner of the room, everyone turned to look. And sure enough, it was the sluttiest girl in our year, Chanice. A pretty, but very very slutty girl, who uses boys like toys.
"Not now, Clarice." whined Austin.
I dropped to my seat, the whole world seemed strange, everyone gathered around me, giving me hugs and asking if I was okay, but I didn't care, the only thing I cared about was the fact that the one person I had truely loved, my entire world, was gone.
The tears flowed from my eyes and I ran.
I woke with a start, as my dad shook me to wake me up.
"Mel, hun, wake up, dinners ready."
"What?" I said rubbing my eyes.
"Dinners ready, I've been yelling you for the past ten minutes."
"Sorry dad, I must have fell asleep."
"Did you get that homework done?"
"What homework?"
"The homework you said you had loads of."
"Oh, yeah, it's all done."
"Great, now you can come downstairs for dinner."
"I'm actually not that hungry, sorry dad."
"Well that's alright," He said, rubbing my head and standing up to leave. "More for me and Susan"
Susan is dad's girlfriend, they got together a few years after my mum died. She feels the need to boss me around and take the place of my mum. She's been in my life for about seven years now and each year I hate her more and more.
"Great." I whispered as I placed my head back into the scrunched up blanket, that always seemed to smell like my mums perfume.
'BEEP BEEP BEEP'
My phone rang so many times until I finally decided to emerse from my blanket and puddle of tears. I didn't even bother to check who was phoning, what a silly mistake I had just made.
"Hello?" I sobbed
"Melody?! Oh thank god, I was ringing for ages, where were you?"
"Austin?" I whipsered.
"Yeah, Melody I'm so sorry."
"Save it, I don't care anymore. How could you? And with her!"
"Melo-"
Before he could even finish, I hung up and as the anger built inside me, I threw the phone. Smashed into a million tiny peices of bullshit and bullying and everything else wrong with this generation.
It was the best thing I had ever done, I just didn't know it yet.
