Hey it's Esme! I'm 12. Growing up has been ruff for me because I get bullied and I just hate myself. I started getting bullied in 5 grade. They called me ugly,fat,shit,worthless,
nasty,useless,stupid,
bitch. I got hurt a lot. They don't know how much it hurts and know I fake a smile everyday and they believe it! Even my mom and sisters call me fat. Now sometimes I hate myself I don't like how I look,how I talk, I call myself fat, I will never be perfect, skinny, have the perfect hair, nice eyes like everyone else. I've been wanting to start to cut because no one cares about me. I always think I don't belong here I shouldn't be alive,I live in hell. I have no friends. I have try to starve myself and make myself throw up..): I make everything worst. I feel so alone even when there's 100s of people around me. I'm lonely, depress,sad,I'm dying, confuse,judge,fucked up,in pain but still smiling): I often wonder why I exist..i just wish i could be happy like everyone else and the bulling to stop. I always let people bring me down. I try to stand up for myself its just makes everything worst..I'm in hell. I wish I was dead..I only know one person who cares about me josie @jdaguilar0..☹please help me✞♡there's way more to this story it's just to horrible ),: ( ig @depress_children I don't have a personal account )
