The Tragic Heart ( A Emmett Cullens twilight love story

Chapter Two: Kill me now

**~ four years later ~**

"Elyssa, Marie ..... "She shouted

I stood up from  the ugly brown chair sighing," for the last time Dr. Hamilton its El," I slugged my backpack over my shoulder as I walked past her into the opened door plopping  myself Into the all too familiar chaise as I melted into it,  Laying back I gazed up at the dull gray ceiling  Dr. Hamilton walked to her seat as she elegantly sat down and crossed her legs. "your hairs gray today "Why the sudden change" she said as she got comfy, I kept quiet staring up at the ceiling like it held the answer to all my question. I knew why i did it, I just didn't want to tell her, She knew already just like when I pierced my lip, I did it because I know It would piss my mom off. I felt her eye burrowing into me  I turned my head as I glanced at her Shrugging my shoulders..."i don't.. Know" I said focusing back on the ceiling " just bored I guess," I wouldn't dare look back at her she know me all too well, first after both my mom and dad split, then me trying to take my own life a month after that. The doctors came to a conclusion that I needed a therapist in my newly depressed life and that's where she came in, Dr. Hamilton cleared her throat, sitting up straight she uncrossed her legs and recrossed them the other way. " Elyss.. El , you know and I know that, that isn't a answer," I had it with people and telling me what I can and can't say.

Like my  teachers, My mom and now her I sat up." You want answers Maddie, I did it cuz I hate everything, my one best-friend hate me and won't talk to me, I don't have a life anymore, and my fucked up mother thinks that if I don't realizes she still seeing my ex best friends dad that everything will go back to normal, but guess what... It won't, my life is like a opened wound and everyday I wake up and a knife just gets jabbed back into it, I yanked up my oversize plaid Cardigan sleeve as I reveled my sliced up arm. The only time I get peace is after I do this, " I held back the tears threatening to pour out as I turned away from her, biting down on my lower lip She walk over as she sat next to me," Elyssa how long has this been going on." She tried to put an arm around me as I scooted away." I don't remember, a few months or so..." She stood suddenly as she took out her phone and  looked to me" Elyssa I have to make a call you stay here..." I shook my head knowing exactly what she was doing. " I'm... I'm going to go, my mom probably waiting,"she shook her head as she held the phone to her ear opening the door to leave. "none of this is your fault, No sixteen year old should be going though what your going though I'm going to help you". I know if I didn't make a run for it now, I would be in the mental wing of the hospital soon after. I grabbed my bag looking towards the door as I sprinted toward her , shoving her slightly to the side as her phone along with herself went crashing to the floor, Everyones eye's looked up from their magazine and phone as I pace walked to the exit.

The older desk secretary walked over to Dr. Hamilton rescue, as I hear her ask if she was OK. "Elyssa don't do this,come back, I'm trying to help you", I heard her call out as I sprinted out of the door taking a left to the elevators. reaching the elevators i repentantly jammed the down button as if it would make it go fast. my eye switched from the hall to the elevator back to the hall." hurry the fuck up"i growled from under my breath. i nervously waited for what seem like a hour.  i jump at the sound of the elevator reaching the floor i was at,  i ran into it and pressed the close button and leaned against the back of it sighing. i looked up seeing Dr. Hamilton try to sprint toward the elevator as it closes in her face. i leaned my head back against the cold metal as i listen for the first floor. it dinged as it opened up, i put my arm thought the other loop of my backpack as i fast walked out of the building keeping my eyes on the floor. Pushing the door open i let out a soft sigh, i'm safe i whispered. i looked out at the New Britain Evening commuters in a hurry to get home.. i look at the purplish sky as i reach in back of me taking my phone out of the side pocket of my backpack five thirty, thirty mins before i should be out of my appointment, i pressed the home  button as i typed in my mom phone number as it rang  "Hello El "my mother muttered.  i rolled my eyes at her  ((why are you calling me when i'm busy tone))  " mom Dr. Hamilton felt sick so you can pick me up now" the line went silent for a while as my mom then answered , " i'm almost done with what i'm doing here can you wait there for like 30 more mins"she harshly said though the phone. " you know what your right, Mr. Johnson is so much more important then your only fucking daughter i yelled back, all i heard was part of my name as i ended the call. i squeezed my hands into balls closing my eyes.... one Mississippi, two Mississippi thre...." El are you OK? " i knew the voice as i looked behind me  at Dr. Hamilton "where's you mom " she spoke kindly,  i just shook my head " she too busy for me"   she looked at me then her eyebrow scrunched up "come with me. " i hesitated slightly as she smirked at me " i was only thinking you might be hungry " her smile became a chuckle as she saw my eyes get bigger. " come on my cars around the corner" she said with another giggle. i followed her to her car..

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The car ride was silent as I stared out my window daydreaming, Dr. Hamilton parked as we walked up the steps to Mimi Diner, " table for two " Dr. Hamilton said. "Anywhere you like," the waitress in a bright pink dress said, I scooted into a booth as Dr. Hamilton elegant sat in the seat across from me.