Find Her

Part 1

"Captain" T'Challa spoke with a fright in his voice, "we need you right now."
"What's going on?" Steve said to his new friend.
"It's Sergeant Barnes. He woke out of cryo and hasn't been able to be calmed."
Steve heart leapt with joy and fright at the same time. Bucky had been in cryo freeze for eight months already while the scientists around him tried to figure out a way to remove the trigger words in his head. Bucky had suddenly, and without warning, woken up on his own without provocation by the scientists. He immediately began thrashing and fighting as if he were in Winter Solider mode. By the time that Steve got to his friend he had been contained again and was now holding a pad and pencil.
"Buck? What happened?" Bucky didn't respond at first. He took in a deep, shaky breath then turned toward Steve.
"Do you still draw?" Bucky inquired.
"Yeah why?" Bucky extended the pad and pencil towards Steve.
"I need you to draw someone. She's in my head." Steve took the items from Bucky then put his arm around his friend and escorted him to the kitchen. Bucky sat down at the dinning room table and started describing the girl in his head and Steve began to draw. Bucky constantly corrected Steve's drawing as he watched him. "No her nose is slimmer than that." "Her lips are thinner. No not that thin." "Her hair is longer." On and on Bucky went until, finally, Steve was finished. He turned the pad and pushed it towards Bucky.
"That's her." Bucky said. "That's Lillian."
"Who is she Bucky?"
"She was a Hydra agent like me. I can't remember what happened to her but I do remember that she was nice to me and we talked a lot. She would kiss my metal arm whenever she saw me. I don't know why but she always did it." Buck said with a slight smile thinking back on the memory. "I don't know what happened to her after I helped her get free. But, when Hydra saw that she was gone, I was given orders to find her and bring her back for punishment. But I can't remember if I was successful or not."
"We will run it through facial recognition to find her." T'Challa said from behind the men. He had been eavesdropping the whole time that Steve was drawing. He had planned on being Steve's backup if Bucky attacked. Bucky nodded his head to the King as T'Challa took the drawing and left the room.
"Bucky?" Steve finally said, breaking the long hanging silence. "What do you think she is to you?"
"What do you mean?"
"You seem really desperate to find her. It sounds like it's more than just you wanting to know if she's alive or dead."
"I think I loved her."