LASHTON one shots

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Ashton's P.O.V

Love.

Having that piece of you that hurts every so often hurts when the one that you love is with somebody else or having that person kiss them. It breaks your heart so much that you lose your love.

You lose everything.

That piece that you had is gone, lost; forgotten, you never try to remember. But all you feel is numb. It's silence. Not a smile is filled on your face. It's like a lost ship. Just drifting in the sea and not one person would look for the ship. The ship would soon sink or break into pieces that would spread and dissolve. But no one would ever see again.

But it's you.

Because that piece that just got ripped out of you will never be fixed. You'll always remember that time. And will try to forget and start again. But it will always end the same, with you trying to recover. Trying to find another lover that can replace your first. It always becomes a cycle.

But you never heal.

You never forget the moments that he broke your heart repeatily. He broke it with lies. With hopeless hope. And with love. It was the love that no one could ever replace.

But you had to let it go.

With all the moments that you all would cuddle and he would tell you little things in your ear as you would giggle and kiss him. It was those things that would make you fall for him even more. When you knew not to.

But little did you know.

That, that person would come back in your life one more time begging and pleading to stay. It was that time that you knew not to trust anyone. Everyone that you had became friends with, you blocked out. You pushed everyone aside and focused on him. Many people told you and warned you not to forgive him, but you never listened.

But at that moment.

That moment that felt like torture and giving up. He pushed you to the very edge of killing yourself. With all the words that came out of his mouth yelling that you weren't worth nothing, you couldn't stand up for yourself. Because you thought it was the truth. You thought that you were just a waste of space. A freak. A nobody that no one cared for.

But at last you got him loose.

You pushed him away and finally realized that he was the problem in your life and that you weren't. You moved somewhere new to start fresh in a new environment. When you accidentally bump into someone.

But little did you know that, that someone would be your soulmate.

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