I got some sleep but not much my stomach was in knots and turning once it was announce that we would be landing i exchanged good byes and safe travels to my new friends since they would be off and gone before I even had a chance to collect my bag from the over head.
when i got out of the airport for the first time i was glad i wore my boots since it was snowing in Paris making everything even more beautiful i got a cab to the hospital thinking it wouldn't be busy but when i walked in through the emergency door there were people every where some covered in blood others cradling broken bones. Two busses full of people slid off the road on opposite sides of the city, it was mayhem and there was no way i was going to get Jason's room number and a pass to visit tonight but thats when i saw the map to the different parts of the hospital the terminal ward was a ways away and so far no one seems to notice me so i followed the signs and directions to the terminal ward. it was empty besides the occasional scream of pain it was silent so i checked the names on the doors until i found "Jason Roux" on the door. i knocked and when i didnt hear an answer i walked in to find he was the only one in the room which was odd since it was mandatory for patents to share rooms and he was sitting up my knock on the door must have woke him up.
He sat up and smiled i dropped my bags and gave him a long hug and sat on the bed with him by his feet which were very cold despite the heated room being very hot. I put my hands on his feet with my hands which were warm despite the cold outside and he at first didn't want me touching his guy feet but then he felt how warm my hands were and seemed to melt.
Jason then said, "thank you my legs have been freezing all day. how was your flight and everything?"
I smiled "Had a little trouble but nothing to bad everyone sends there love and regrets about not being here." i started rubbing his ankles and feet trying to warm them up.
"I understand i know they would have come had they been able to, I'm sorry i wasn't able to come to your...."
I interupted "I know your a busy man Jason and you and my husband didn't exactly get along.
He then asked me "How have you been doing?" he put his hand on my hands stopping me from moving them away from him.
"i have my moments but otherwise I'm doing better, its getting easier to talk about the car accident. Now your the one in the hospital not me how are you holding up?" i now put my hand on top of his.
he sighed and looked down but put his hand over mine holding it there and said "i hate that question because there is never a truthful answer but i am realizing how important every moment is everyone i love and my moments with them. when it comes down to it i found the only one i want to spend my last moments with is you." he looked at me hoping i would get his hint and normaly i wouldn't have but after reading the dedication in the book i realized just how much he did love me.
"what? little old me?" i said with fake modestly
he laughed and smiled i forgot what a great smile he had.
I got a week of vacation so im all yours until friday then i have to fly home. is there anything you want to do?"
he smiled "you mean like skydiving and bunge jumping and riding rollercoasters until i throw up kinda stuff." he grined
"Sure if you want, i've done all of those things already so i can give you advise on those things?"
he seems puzzled then he said " I thought you were afraid of heights?"
i shook my head from side to side as i said this "no i've never been afraid of heights." i smiled
"But when we all went to the state fair and we went on the Zipper ride you wouldn't let go of my hand until we were back on the ground, i had to drag you on all the rides after that." he had a gotcha smug look on his face then i said
"well maybe i didn't want you to think that i would hold your hand for any other reason other then being scared?" i smiled?"
"what?" he looked puzzled
i laughed then said...
"i need to go to the bathroom" i got up and went to the attached bathroom and washed my face and when i came back out i felt better having blown my running nose as well. he smiled at me and still was puzzled by what i had said.
"so what's the first order of business?" trying to sound cheerful
"First i need your help to get out of here?" he stood up
"What?! Why?" i was a bit shocked he was always the good little boy he never broke the rules i was the one who did that.
"I don't want to spend my last month and a half in this hospital i want out." he sat in a chair without turning around to see it.
"cant you leave when ever you want?"
"No i cant, they wont let me or i would have come home to die. my parents make very "charitable" donations to this hospital so when they asked for something like "don't let my son check out" or to arrange for me to have my own room with a view they do it." he sighed "they even have me scheduled for surgery to remove some of the cancer but ill spend my last days recovering from the surgery which will do me no good since its spread all over."
"and all the nurses and doctors know who you are on sight?" i sighed
"You've always been great at sneaking out especially at night" he smiled
"You saw me sneak out?" guess i wasn't as good as i thought i was
"Almost every night yeah." he grinned
"You sure its best to leave?" i asked
"its what i want so yes." his eyes were pleading with me now
"ok, first we need to change your clothes." i stood up and smiled
"my clothes are locked up in that locker one of the nurses has the key to it" he bite his lower lip
"hhmmm?" i picked up my bag and set it on the bed and started pulling out my clothes "here you go? put this on?" i pulled out a pair of my sweat pants that was black and said "juicy" across the butt in hot pink they were huge on me so i was sure they would fit him. i found my extra long favorite t-shit i brought to sleep in and it would cover the hot pink juicy words.
He went into the bathroom and changed while i repacked my clothes he came out before i was done he didn't look bad so i smiled.
"your gonna need socks and lucky for you i brought a pair of gym shoes and a cap and you left your favorite jacket at our house the last time you visited." i handed it to him and finished and zipped my bag shut and put my computer strap over my head and asked "are you ready?"
he stood up and said "yes, can you tell its me?" he seemed nervous
i smiled "at a glance no but what you need to do is don't look down look straight ahead like you have better places to be and most importantly dont let go of my hand."
"i can do that." he took a breath and i opened the door and we walked out of the room hand in hand and still there was no nurse at the desk in the hallway. we had to exit through the emergency door since the rest of the hospital doors were closed off. We didn't have any trouble even though the emergency room had slowed down and was organized now everyone was paying attention to the news crew that was there broadcasting live about the bus accidents we slipped by easily but once we got outside i realized i hadn't called a cab or anything we were stranded outside in the cold i cursed under my breath and took out my cell phone which i hadn't turned back on yet when a cab came down the street right up to the hospital and a young man jumped out one side and ran to the other door and opened the door to let a very pregnant women out slowly and was so nervous he dropped his wallet when trying to pay the cabby i stepped up to him and said "sir?! go be with your wife i got your fare hurry up!" he didnt even hesitate he said "thank you very much" in french and ran to her aide and we climbed in the cab and i payed there fare and tipped him then Jason gave him his home address and away we went. i reached into my pocket and pulled out my cell phone i had completly forgot to turn it back on and also let my dad know i had gotten here safely when i turned it back on i had 21 messages and 3o text messages what was going on?
