The Journal..

2/1/16

Sometimes the pain we feel in our hearts isn't really pain. Sometimes it's
suffering. Suffering from loss. Suffering from betrayal. Suffering from the horrid realization that you have nothing and are nothing. Nothing at all.

With every breath you take, you will always see a mistake. You will

continue to drag the world down with you.

So what's the answer? What do you do? Run? Hide? Die?

No.

You can't.

They are all counting on you, even though they are the ones who make you

feel this way. You work your ass off for them. But as soon as you make a mistake, it's all you are to them. That one mistake.
Keep on repeating the same mistakes over and over again. And you can't stop.

What are you supposed to do when everything crumbles around you? You keep it on the inside, because that's the safest place. You gotta

pretend everything's okay. Faking a smile is so much easier than

explaining why you're sad. You tell people you're tired, when you're really

depressed. You tell them you'll be fine tomorrow, when you know

tomorrow will be worse. You tell more and more lies everyday, but you know deep inside that you can't get better.

And you're on your own.....