My Depression story (It's still going on)

pain

So a few days ago my best friend called me a bitch for no reason and I don't know what to do about it I basically want to take my pocket knife and cut away at my arm until I'm bleeding all over my bathroom floor and just die it also doesn't help that I feel like the guy I want to date hates me and wants nothing to do with me and just wants me to leave him alone if he does want me to why doesn't he tell me to instead of leading me on to think he likes me back I guess that's what I get for letting people in my life and not thinking things though. My life is just to hard for me to handle I sometimes think is it better for me to just leave and make everyone happy with me gone. Lots of people just don't care about others or how they feel its always about them I done with people like that so all I have to Say to them is I'm sorry I can't be perfect