The Story (On Hold)

Sarah

Something about sitting next to James my stomach ball unravels, and my tears on my face dry up. Now my classes are going so slow. Maybe it's because I want lunch to come or I just want to see James's face again. We leave Mrs. Benz's class and go to Mr. Jones (he teaches social studies). Before I get in class Trisha pulls me aside with her girl group, Brianna, Alayna, and Gabby. "You could never support him." She said in the most sinister, mean girl, cocky cheerleader voice ever. "Well just saying he really isn't that good of a boyfriend anyway and the only reason he is going out with you is because he says that you have a big ass." I said sounding girly ass fuck. "Oh...Yea well he told me that he won't go out with you is because you won't put out and you're fat. Just saying!!" she said sounding mad. Her words pierce me in the heart like a blade. All of a sudden after her and her friends passed I started to cry. I don't why but I just started to cry. I knew what they said wasn't true but I just wanted to die in a hole. I walked in smearing my make-up and sat down next to James. I didn't want him to see me like this. As I sit down, hiding my face in my elbow, when James pulls my arm and makes me look at him. "I heard what they said and by the way her ass so flat it looks like a straight line." He said trying to cheer me up. "And anyway you look WAY hotter than her and who ever this Julian guy is, he doesn't know how hot you are and is willing to break up with you for some skinny ass bitch" he says. I looked at him and all I saw was a guy who could make me feel good and someone who would care for me. I wanted to say something like "You're really hot and I just want to kiss you" or something like that but I could say was "Thanks but I'm just an ugly girl that no one likes and that's that." "That's not true. I like you and I just meet you" He said with a little of irritation in his voice. As soon as he said the bell rung and everyone piled out of the room. I got mixed in the crowed and lost sight of James. He is so nice and caring. He would be the perfect boyfriend. I think.

I went down to the café to look for a place to sit. I found a table when Julian comes up and sits next to me. "Hey Sarah... I just want to tell you that I'm really sorry how we couldn't make it work. You could never support me, but you were still awesome to be around. And maybe we could still be friends??" he said with no emotion in his face. "Ok...so why did you break up with me and don't say because you could never have supported me" I said getting really mad. "I broke up with you was because Trisha could support me and my decisions and because you are not that pretty and I need a girl who is pretty and supportive." He said like he (of all people) was getting irritated. "Oh... so I'm not pretty and supportive? That's real nice to know" I yelled. I ran out of the lunch room, crying my eyes out (for like the 7th time today). As I ran out I bumped into James. I ran into the girl's bathroom. I sat on the floor and just cried. My heart felt like it was capsuling, my lungs losing air, and my eyes getting puffy. I was crying so much that I didn't even hear James come in. He sat next to me and put me in his arms. He had great muscular arms and a great chest. He held so forceful, but with passion and I just sat there and cried into his arms. We sat what felt like forever until I stop crying. I wanted to thank him for being here but I couldn't. I wanted to get up, so I nudge him in the ribs, but it didn't work because his ribs were rock hard. I look up at his face to see him crying. I finally get free and ask him "What's wrong James?" "Don't you just hate it when you trust someone with your heart and they go and crush it??" he said sounding mad as fuck. "Yea...you know Julian broke my heart and ruined our friendship by going out with that asshole" I yelled. "My ex-girlfriend, Amanda, goes and puts out for some other guy and breaks up with me over the phone" he yells. I look at his face and I see this guy so emotional broken and sad and I just want him to be with me. I lean in towards his face and stop right at his lips. "You are sexy when you're mad." I say. "You're even sexier when you're sad" he said breathing hard. He leans and we shared the most passionate kiss ever. He grabs me and puts me in his lap. He runs his hands thru my hair while I run my hands along his back. We make-out for what felt like forever until we heard the bell rung. I took my lips off his lips and got up from his lap. I felt really embarrass so I ran out of the bathroom. I know I shouldn't have run but I did. I didn't want him to be heartbroken because I am a REALLY bad girlfriend. I stopped at the double doors and thought to myself "What would he think of me? He might hate me and he is the only true friend that gets my problems and cares for me". As I turned around I see James coming towards. He reaches me and grabs my arms and leads me to abandon janitors closest. He slams the door shut and pushes me into the door. He kisses me so rough that I think that this is "50 Shades of Grey". I break off the kiss because for 1. I'm out of breath and 2. I don't feel right doing this. "I don't want to hurt you James..." I say below a whisper. "I determine if I want to be hurt or not... I just want you..."he whispered. He kisses my neck then leaves without saying anything. I stood there trying to figure out what happened. I walked out and went to my next class. When it was time to leave the school, I ran out of the building because I was scared, hurt, and I didn't really want to see James. What he said in the janitor's closet made me want to throw up but also make me want to kiss him. I got down the stairs and out to my car before I saw James. He was sitting there looking pitiful and awful. I walked over and said "Hey I'm sorry about what happened in the janitor's closet... I know you get to be determined if you get hurt or not but still... I don't want to hurt you James". As I walked away, James grabbed my hand and pushes me into the passage seat of my car, grabbed my car keys and pulled out of the school parking lot. I kept asking where we go but he just grunted the answer so I just shut my ass up. When he finally stopped the car, I looked around and saw that we were at Beach 7. He got and walked on the sand. I got and took off my sandals and walked onto the sand. I always love the warm sand between my feet and the smell of the clear salt water of the beach. I got so caught up in the beach that I forgot that I was here with James. "This is my favorite spot to curse at the people who betray me and just think..." he said with a little irritation in his voice. "So you brought me here because???" I said. "Because right now I'm mad and sad at you" he said getting up from the sand. "Oh...Is that Right? What the hell have I done to you for you to be mad and sad at me" I said with anger. My eyes were getting puffy, my chest starting to hurting, and lungs losing air. "Because I mad that I'm sad that I can't have you to kiss and hold, I'm mad because you are saying that you don't want me" he said yell his lungs out. "Well... did you every think that maybe I want you but don't want to hurt you??!!!???" I said yelling. I got up and went toward my car. He ran up and pushed me into my car. He kissed me on my lips first then on my neck. "Do you want really want me?" he said whispering in my ear. "Yes...Yes James...I want you...Always have" I moaned. I took off his shirt and kissed his chest. He breathed so elegant and graceful; I thought he was a dancer. I kissed the spot where his heart is and felt him tense up. "Do you want to be loved or are you just stringing me" I said between kisses. I walked away and got into the car. I know he wants me but something inside me says that I shouldn't trust him. He puts his shirt on and gets in the driver side and we drove off. We got to his house around 8:00 that night. "Here!" James said as he threw my keys at me. "Thanks for taking me to the beach" I said. I turned to go in my car when James was right behind me. "Don't ever think I would string you along... I just want to kiss you" he moaned in my ear. "Then why don't you" I whispered in his ear. He kissed the side of my neck and then moved to my lips. I could still feel the warmth of his lips on my neck as he pulled away. I got in my car and drove off wanting to turn around and kiss him again but I didn't turn around and go back. I should have.