Im mean...
Im a dick...
But i have a reason....
Im not mad for no reason....
It started with a boy...
A boy with a big place in his heart for his dad....
The boy loved his stupid father..
Despite every thing he had done..
One would question why a 6 year old would come to school with a black eye.....
One would question how it happened......
The boy wouldn't understand why his dad was wanting to keep the real meaning behind the black eye a secret.....
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One would question why a seven year old knew the things he knew.....
Knew things that other kids didnt know.....
Teachers questioned why the boy was how he was....
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One would question why an 8 year old would start to randomly cry in class....
Why he was depressed even before he had a scence of opinion.....
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One would question why a nine
Was afraid of adults...
Especially when they got mad
They would wonder why he said sorry so much...
They would wonder why he acted as if he didnt madder...
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One would question why a 10 year old wouldn't wanna go home....
Why he tried to hide to avoid getting on the bus to go home....
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One would question why an eleven year old would refuse to smile in a school picture...
One would question why he had nothing to smile about....
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One would question why a 12 year old would need counseling for anxiety.....
Why he would need counseling for depression at such a young age.....
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One would question why a 13 year old has PTSD, anxiety, severe depression, and suicidal thoughts....
One would wonder why he hardly believed in god....
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One would question why a 14 year old has, severe PTSD, severe anxiety, and severe depression....
One would question why he has panic attacks every day.....
One would question........
Why he planned his suicide....
Why he hated his dad.....
Why he had trust issues....
Why he hated every one and every thing........
Why he didnt talk...
Why he hurt himself all the time....
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One would question why no one asked this boy what was wrong....
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But.....
The only thing he questioned...
Was if he could make it one more day....
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People wondered....
But no one asked....
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"All i see is black....every where; black.....thats all i feel too"
I.C.E
