End This Pain

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The sun rays pass through the window and it gives warm on my cold skin, crawling up in my system, waking me up in my dreamless sleep.

The soft knock on my door shakes my well-being, slowly standing on my feet and start to walk until I reach the door. My mother's smiling face greets my emotionless one "What are you doing here, mother?" I ask her, still passive. "You're father is here, he wants to see you." She said, happiness is visible in her tone.

Why would I like to see that disgusting and horrible man? He's nothing but a piece of trash! "Tell him that I don't want." And i closed my door without bothering what's my mother's response. I keep on looking outside my window and watching the birds fly with their wings freely, with their own flock, flying in sync.

I envy the birds because they are free to fly and spread their wings and feel the air. I wish I can be like them, not literally, but I want to be free. I want to go outside and walk until the sun kisses good bye and the moon will look at me and smile.

But no, I'm here in my room. Sulking and doing a pity party for myself. My life sucks, really. A soft knock in my door startled me in my thoughts.

I look at the door and saw my father walk in. I looked away "What are you doing here? Didn't I told mom that I don't want to see you?" I said not bothering myself to look at him. "I know but I'm stubborn like you." He said and I know that he's smiling base on his tone

"Now that you already saw me. Can you go back to your other family now? 'Coz I don't want you here near me. You disgust me." I said with venom, I know I don't give him some respect but who cares? He is unrespectable man! "But-" "Out now father." I emphasized the word father for him to understand that I don't like him here.

"If you want to see me just tell it to your mother." Sadness lingering on his voice but as I said who cares? He's no longer my father. The moment he step out on our door with his bags and not listening to my calling, that's the end of our bond. Leaving us for another woman? That's bullshit in any way, even if I flip the earth. I hate him for doing this to us, to my mother that he promised to be love until they die.

I heard the fading footsteps as the door closed. I sighed and I let the single tear to fall and slowly i start to cry my heart out. This tears is not enough to ease my pain, this heart aches too. The pain I felt while he's talking burse like a bomb.

"Why did you do that to your father?" I hear my mother said, i didn't notice her walked in. I sobbed and look at her with my teary eyes.

"Why do you care for him mother? You should be angry at him! He left you! Us! The vows you made together, 'till death do us part right? Why do you still love him after what he did to you?! Leaving you like it's the easiest thing! He just look at you when you beg him to stay! You beg on your knees mom. I can't take that, it kills me." I shout at her but she said nothing, she just look at me while silently crying, I know my mother is hurt, i know it.

I'm still crying while looking at her waiting for her response but I got none. "Mother" I went to her and hold her elbow "Why? All the pain that he gave to us, why are you still strong? Why are you letting him enter here in our home? Mother please, stop pretending that you're not hurt and you're okay when you're not!" I shake her and my knees went limp and i fell on the floor.

How can he take to leave this amazing woman? She's the best of best, she loves him so much that she begged on her knees. How can he cheat on her if she gave him all. How can he leave a strong woman! I can't believe him, I can't believe that he's my father and her husband.

"I hate him mom. I hate him." I felt a hand touched my shoulder, I look at her and I saw that she's crying too "Darling, I can't be weak. You need me to be strong. I saw how it hurts you, I can't be weak. I want you to see me strong. Believe me when I say that I'm hurting inside." She said and smiled at me as if everything is okay.

I look at her "Can we end this pain mom?"

END - xxx

First story for this story compilation.