That one girl

7. Pain strikes at the worst.

When I got home, the house was empty, mom wasn't home. I checked every closet and room. Mom definitely was not here. How odd. She works on weekends.

I got out my phone and texted her.

[me]hai mom. Where are you?

I stared at the screen for 10 minutes. Still no reply. For some reason I started to panic. I texted Harry.

[me]harry, can you come over? Mom isn't home and in scared.

[hazza]of course. Be there soon :3

I waited for 15 minutes and Harry was here. We talked about possible scenarios that happened to my mom, but it was too horrific, I felt sick to my stomach wondering what happened to my mom.

The home phone rang, I got up and answered it.

"Hello?" I said.

"Hi, this is Kate, from the local hospital, is this Elysia Allison?" Kate asked.

"Yeah. Is this about my mom?" I asked gulping.

"I'm afraid so. I have some sad news, your mother committed suicide and is in the hospital, police and the hospital taking more investigations. Two hikers found her body, it appeared that she jumped off.." I didn't hear the rest, I had vomit in my mouth, I gave the phone to Harry, and I spewed in the sink.

"Hi, this is Harry. Elysia's boyfriend,"

I kept throwing my guts up.

My mom.. Dead? No! She can't be! She's the strongest person alive! He can't be.

"Oh ok, well we'll be right there," Harry said.

He pressed 'end' then he grabbed my hair pulling it back.

"Are you finished?" He asked.

I nodded, my mouth was dry and had horrible taste.

I was crying, and I felt like half of my life has been stolen away. I turned around and faced Harry. He looked at me, he had tears in his eyes, but he managed to keep them in. He grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. I cried my eyes out. I still felt sick.

"I'm sorry, babe, but we have to go the hospital. Lucky I just got my L's," he said. We walked out, I locked the door, still crying.

I wanted my mom, and her cuddles. But she won't be there anymore, that thought made me cry more. We got into the car and Harry drove carefully and safely.




When we got to the hospital, I calmed down the tiniest bit, but I still had that hole buried deep in my chest.

"Come on, babe," Harry said opening my door and grabbing my hand. We walked into the hospital and to Kate.

Harry went to the reception, but Kate was already waiting for us.







The three of us sat in seats in Kate's office.

"Elysia, I think you should talk to someone," Kate said soothingly.

"I have no one to talk to. It was always my mom. But.. Not anymore," I cried wiping my nose with a tissue.

"Elysia, your mom had something in her pockets, it's a note. Directly to you," Kate handed the note to me.

I took a deep breath and opened it.




My dear Elysia,




I'm so sorry. I had to. I've been dealing with this pain for a few years now. I just decided it was too much, and I couldn't deal with it anymore. I've been feeling suicidal for months, I've kept it inside and I've stopped myself because of you. My beautiful daughter, you're so strong, I want you to live life to the fullest, have kids get married do all the adult things. You got Harry and his family. You'll live with them. I love you, and I always will, you're stunning. Please grow up, and realise the life that you have is special, bubba. Your sister and I will be watching you, and turn the high beams on, so we can guide you through your tangled life.

I love you.




I got up, I chucked the chair across the room.

"ARGH!! WHY, MOM?!" I screamed pulling at my hair. I kicked the wall, causing a dent in the plastered wall.

"ELYSIA!" Harry yelled grabbing me and trying to calm me.

I kicked, screamed and punched. I eventually got free. I ran out of the hospital and into the fresh air. I fell onto the fresh wet grass, I put my head into my hands and screamed.

"Fucking why?" I screamed into my hands.

I pulled at my hair, and cried. Harry and Kate came out, Harry came beside me, he pulled me into a hug and stroked my hair.

"Shh, everything will be OK," he said kissing my forehead.

"N-no it w-won't," I stuttered.

It really won't.