Just Cause I Smile Don't Mean I'm Hurt.

Chapter 1:

*Knock, knock, knock*
Remind you its three o'clock in the morning and someone is at my door banging like that??! Oh no ma'am.

I slipped on my socks and a big tee and threw my hair up in a messy bun, I grabbed my metal bat and made my way down stairs.
"WHO IS IT?!" I yelled while looking through the peep hole in my front door.
"Jasmine please open this door, its raining. "Antonio yelled through the door causing me laugh so hard I had to hold my stomach. "You was supposed to be here sense ten o'clock you think I care about some rain Toni??! " I said to him through the crack in the door, I unlocked the bottom lock but not the chain so he couldn't get inside.
He just looked at me as the hard rain dripped off his face and the thunder started to get louder. "Jassy I'm sorry, I got caught up in you know, business. I had to make a couple runs back to the other house." He said, looking at me through the crack. I unlocked the door and let him in cause it started raining even harder. He took off all his wet clothes and shoes and put them in the dirty clothes hamper, just leaving himself in his boxers and a tee shirt.
As I started to walk back up my stairs passed him, he gently grabbed my arm and turned me back to wards him.
"GET THE FUCK OFF OF ME, " I yelled, snatching my arm away from him. "When will you get it, these streets is going to be the death of you Antonio!, You promised you stopped selling drugs and doing who knows what else the hell you do when your not home! Think about people who actually care for your stupid ass,and tighten the fuck up! Quit fucking around with these niggas who I know DAMN well won't be at your funeral, who won't help me pay for your funeral, and won't be there to comfort both sides of our family when your dumb ass is gone!"I said mushing his head back hard causing him to walk backwards down the last two steps. I walked up in his personal space and put my finger on the side of his head and said through clinched jaws, "And next time you bring your ass back in here at 3 in the morning my nigga , make sure you don't smell like that cheap ass perfume your ex wears 24/7, you bitch made nigga! And sleep your ass on the couch!"
, And with that being said went back in my room pissed off and upset. I slammed my door and climbed back in my California king size bed and grabbed my phone. I seen I had missed a call from my daddy five minutes ago, so I called him back on face time and waited for his face to pop up.
"DADDYYY, " I wined into the
phone as he smirked at me.
"Hey baby girl, I thought you was going to be sleeping by now. What's wrong with daddies princess? " My dad said to me while changing his whole facial expression. I just wish he would hurry back home and leave the military. Ugggh!
"Antonio is what's wrong daddy, I just don't know what to do with him. He is trying to quit so he say, but its not that easy for him and he came back home smelling like his fucking ex and I just don't know anymore daddy I don't. " I said breaking down into tears on the phone.
Me and my dad talked until five in the morning on the phone and I was getting hungry as dragon balls.
"Daddy I'm starving, " I said poking out my lips into the phone. My daddy laughed at me and shook his head.
"Go get some food baby, and Did you tell him yet baby girl? " He said to me causing me to scoff hard and roll my eyes.
"Its not like he cares to know any ways so why would I tell him? Like daddy, the boy got here at 3 o'clock in the damn morning. I've been on my ass trying to get in touch with him all day! Like who does that? Just come home daddy pleaseeee." I said wiping my face off again, I'm so damn emotional. Real niggas don't cry, get it together Jasmine.
"Listen to me Jassy, I know your upset baby girl but you have to hear him out as well and you need to talk to that boy. You guys are about to start a family and if he don't get his act together, I'll fix him for you. I'll be home real soon baby girl, I love you and take care of my grandchild, stop stressing so hard, Antonio will be fine okay, daddy has to go now. " He said to me causing me to cry and laugh at the same time. Man fuck these hormones!
"I will daddy and please hurry home. I love you too and so does bubbles. "I said smiling and putting the phone by my belly so he knows, we blew each other a kiss and I waved at him and disconnected the call.

I placed my phone on the charger and went downstairs to the kitchen. As I was in the kitchen eating my pint of caramel ice cream and nacho doritos, I herd a thump on the ground and looked out the kitchen and into the living room and saw Antonio on the ground beside the couch grunting in pain with his eyes close. I ran over to him and got down beside him, checking to see if he had any wounds and he didn't.
"Baby, what's wrong? "I said to him, helping him back up on the couch. He was sweating hard and looked like he seen a ghost. He looked his self over and looked back up at me to make sure I was still there and sighed hard.

"I thought I was dead man, just a bad ass dream I had. Your words hit me hard Jassy, like I thought life was done with for me. I'm sorry baby I really am, I just fucked up. I never cheated on you in any type of way I swear. Its just hard to just up and quit something that made me the way I am today and give us what we have now. But I promise you I will quit, please give me a month I swear I'm done. I just have to find someone trust worthy of taking over it all. I love you." Antonio said looking up at me with sadness plastered all on his face. I just couldn't help it no more, I gave in.
I climbed on his on lap and wrapped my legs around his waist while I put my face in the crook of his neck and hugged him tightly. He didn't say anything else after that and just held me tightly while trying to get his breathing back to normal, by just rubbing his hands up and down my back and soothing me.
Even though I was hungry, I liked it this way and I did not want to move. I was so tired I didn't even realize I fell asleep in his arms. He picked me up bridal style and took me all the way upstairs into our bed room, threw my body pillow off our California king bed and laid me in the center of my gold silk sheets after undressing me from earlier. I felt the bed softly sink in and his Strong arms wrapped around my waist and landed on my belly. I tried to move but he pulled me back, "Baby stop moving, I just want to hold you. "He said as he rubbed my belly with his thumb causing me to go straight to sleep.

..... Does he know about my baby??
..... Is he cheating??
..... Where's my daddy when I really need himmmm?? 😣😭😭