I Love a Thug♥

I'm In Love With A Thug

Love? I forgot what that felt like. Friends? Are they really my friends. Family? Doesn't feel like I have one. Gorgeous? I don't think so. These are the things I think about on a daily basis.

I get up and stretch then sit on the edge of my bed. I really don't feel like going to this hell hole called school. I finally get my lazy butt up and stump to the bathroom. I look in the mirror and look at my hershey brown skin. People say I'm pretty, but I don't see it. I undress to get ready and take a shower. I shiver as the cold air from the air vent skips across my back.

I turn the shower on to a luke warm temperature. I step in and let the water run down my spine. I love this feeling. It feels like all my stress is sliding down the drain.

I dreaded to get out the shower but I did anyways. I wrapped my self in my robe and leaned against the sink. I got my face towel and ran water on it. I washed my face with the warm wash cloth. Then picked up my toothbrush to begin brushing my teeth.

My morning bathroom routine is done. Now I go to my closet and search for something to wear. I found my days attire and ironed it. I lotioned my body down and slipped on my clothes.

I walked down stairs to see Kim and Greg sitting at the table. Kim and Greg are my so call parents. They treat me like crap! They've caused me so much emotional and physical pain. Graduation is 7 months away and after that IM OUT! Im tired of being hurt and Im tired of crying.

Kim:Nae!

Nae:Ma'am?

Kim:Have a nice day. Love you!

Greg was asleep on the couch at the moment.

Nae:I will. Bye!.

Why is she being so nice this morning?

I walk to my friend Taylor's house so we can leave for school. She's my ride. When I walk into her driveway she's heading out the door.

Tay:Hop in.

We pull up to the school and see the person I hated the most.

Brian.

I hate him so much to where everytime I see him, my flesh crawls. I hate him with a passion. Wanna know why?

Brian was the guy I considered to be my first love. We got together the summer before Junior year. He was my rock,my heart,my everything. I loved him so much. We spent every wakened minute together.

But, something crushed my heart. I was leaving out of the school yard before 5th period one day and I seen the worst thing ever. Brian kissing my EX Bestfriend Krissy. As she says, he came on to her. But Krissy's known for getting around so I wasn't suprised. She always had to have what was mine.

So now I'm single. I dont think I could ever love again. He broke me. I really think my heart split in half. I cried endlessly for about a month. I stopped eating and even going to school. He put me in a state of depression. Hopefully I can find someone who will treat me right. But till then Im riding solo.

Tay and I get out the car and walk into school. I have a feeling today is gonna be a LONGGGGG day.