I have a friend,
She use to make me smile
Make me remember that there would always be a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
But one day she just left
I stood there in shock
Not wanting to do anything, not even cry
Cause if I were to do something I would realize that what was once my biggest strength was now my weakness.
I can still remember those days as a child
That even if it was raining outside and the sky was dark and gloomy
I would thank mother nature for giving us weather and food for the trees that allow us to live
See as a child I was very optimistic about all aspects of life
But now as I've gotten older, I've lost that gold little speck in my brown murky eyes
Now my eyes, the key to my soul, are darkened with anger, hatred but most importantly...
Fear
I fear being fearful
I hate having weaknesses
Cause if i do have a weakness
Then someone will have leverage over me
I will no longer have the upper hand
And soon enough it will be my demise.
You see these are my thoughts now as a young adult,
Since my friend disappeared I've learned to hate the world
Because it turned its back on me,
I turned my back on it.
If your out there dear friend, I want to say something:
Dear, Happiness
Although you were there through good and bad times, you still left me out of no where and now I am broken. But don't worry your place has been filled by another friend, her name is Depression. Although she eats me alive and never makes me smile, she stayed although you left, I've always thought that one day you would come back, Iv'e waited five years and still, your not here.
Sincerely,
Lost Soul
