LOVE ADVICE 101

);PAIN;(

everyone goes trough pain. there are thousands of things or whatever that cause us pain.

what is pain?? there are two pains in our life.

pained emotionally or physically.

emotionally pained. ofcourse that happens to all people. there are billions of reason why people get pained.

loosing someone you love can cause pain. pain is the word for hurt.

when your in pain all you wanna do is cry. shout and snap at everyone. you cant keep your emotion bottle up or youll get mentally ill.

there are so many question about pain.

why do we have to go through it?

why do we feel pain?

can we ever escape pain?

no we cannot escape or run away from pain. pain is everywhere they come by surprise other people knows pain too. everybody goes through it.

and that my friend is what im going through right now. as i said there are hundreds of reason for pain. but i think family pain is more painful than relationship pain.

let me tell you a short story why im pained today. yesterday and from the past year.

we were supposed to be a happy family. mom dad me and my 2 little sister.

well my mom had her friends and dad also. moms bestfriend contains 5 including mom.

theres shura with her big sister courtny then sherry the most oldest in the group. and then theres shiella.

mom courtney shura and sherry were cousins. and shiella on the other hand is the wife of moms cousin so thats make her like an outsider,

shiella and moms cousin have long broken up. but mom and the others treated her like a true sister.

shiella is the uhm poor in the group and ofcourse mom and hers cousin didnt mind. they bought her everything she needed whenever there are gatherings they didnt make her pay or atleast share a bill knowing she's struggling when it comes to money.

shiella had a boyfriend his name was yeng. he is a guitarist in a band reggae ban actually he has a family. so shiella was the mistress. yeng was actually an average guy.

and yeah shiella had a daughter with my moms cousin a girl she was just my age her name shanetall. we were like sisters damn i even bought her some things like mine.

well back to the story.

shiella and mom loves to hang out. shiella goes to our house like everynight.

my dad on the other hand is a drug addict. mom and dad actually but mom has stopped along time ago just eaving dad still using some drugs. mom was actually fat hehehe but year 2013 2014 mom was sick she did get so thin you can see her bone. she was pale and she stays in bed 24/7 mom doesnt always eat. dad did nothing about that.

i was so mad that time i kept scolding mom. and tried to convince her to go to the doctor but i got unsucsessful about it.

then mom and dad fight everyday. everyday until mom decided to go back to her mom my grandma.

*time skip mom last scene in the house * *12;29 am*

i was sleeping. but i woke up cause i hear sniffles. i didnt open my eyes and kept pretending to be asleep. later on i felt wet lips on my forehead. i knew it was dad cause he whispered

"sorry! nak" (sorry my child) i knew something was wrong with that then he walks out my room. later on i heard screaming outside. i quickly bolt up and ran outide mom and dad were fighting outside. my uncle van (moms brother) was pulling mom and shiella was pulling dad away. i screamed and cried for them to stop but its like im invisible. i never knew that was the day i would last see my mom and dad together.

that night i cried my self to sleep. and when i woke up mom was gone. she left us with dad me and my little sisters. uncle van went with her and shiella was left with us. after weeks they got my little sister but they left me. i cried about it.

fast forward

months passed shiella stayed with me and dad. wich was odd but i shrugged it. without me knwoing it they brain washed me. so they could use me against mom.

they made me angry to my mom. i was so angry i was so selfish that time they said that mom had another boyfriend..

shiella and dad got together ofcourse me being brain washed it didnt matter..

After long 3months. I finally grew some balls and faced my mom.

And then boom.. everything i believed that came out from shiella and dads mouth are lies.

They have been together even mom and dad are still together.

And now we suffer.

Thats pain. But i have learned never give up. Because after the pain comes the happiness..

So thats our topic for the day pain :D