Middle Of Nowhere (Niall Horan)

Chapter 12

*Chapter Twelve*

Hey Dianas :) school starts tomorrow , so gotta give you an update :)

thanks for reading , you are all awesome

hugs and kisses :*

so every chapter is going to include a song from now on

the song of this chapter is : zedd ft. Hayley Williams - stay the night

open the song when I tell you

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" I suspect about that " Liam laughed

what am I going to say ? their words made my cheeks so read , I could feel the blood going up to them , I don't feel comfortable , can't this end so soon ?

c'mon Hayley  say something ! my inner voice slapped me

" I don't know what to say , but what I told you was true " I sucked at explaining " we are just friends " I said slowly word by word

" alright , are you hungry guys " Niall got on his feet asking us , is he going to eat for the second time ? I mean we just ate ! I wish I had his metabolism it works so fast , poor stomach how in heavens name can it handle all these amounts of food ? However he's so lucky , he doesn't get fat at all .. I am not fat also but I go to gym sometimes , train alot , work hard and the most important thing is that I read and do ' aneroxic tips ' you know what does that mean ?  yeah you got it ... self-punishment , I often judge myself for eating like seriously .. but I hate myself for doing that , I prevent myself from eating so I can't be rejected ! this is insane and you may say that I don't have confidence but this is true .. Dad ruined my life , these four words are going to be my excuse for anything wrong I may do ..

back to reality I heard them talking

" I really am , why don't we go out to have  lunch ? " Louis looked at Niall then turned his face to look at the others , to ask for their own opinions with his one hand rested on his knee

" seems to be the brightest idea " Zayn stated with his soft voice

" I am personally starving , I could go anywhere for food at this moment " Harry placed his hand on his abdomen as if he was touching the hungery birds that were flying in his stomach hehe

" Liam and Niall I am waiting for your answers " Louis said " Ah and we have Hayley , what do you think ? " he completed his speech

Niall's eyes and mine met as Louis mentioned my name ,  it's like Niall was confused he gave a small smile telling me what do I think

" I'm in " Liam has finally made up his mind

then everyone started at Niall and me  ...  waiting for us

" but we just ate " I smiled shyly

( PLAY THE SONG NOW !)

" you Haven't eaten anything , you just cried " Niall manged to say fast without thinking about his words , Nobody knew I was crying , he should not say that in front of them since it was something personal to me

my face turned so pale , I was looking at nothing but still could see Niall looking at me from the corner of my eyes

I kept calm , I was shocked how in the hell could he just say this , I felt ashamed .. Everybody's going to think about how stupid I actually am 

HE SHOULD'VE HELD HIS TONGUE !

" I have to go now " I got on my feet , I felt like running from where I am

everybody started at me

" Hayley wait .. " Niall softly stated

I should get out of here fast  , I looked at Niall  " y-yeah .. " did I just shuttered ? yes I did

" wait , wanna talk to you " Niall face was unreadable

without hesitation I headed to the door to open it , my heart was jumping up and down

I may be over reacting but he touched the sensitive nerve of mine

I get out of Niall's flat , Niall grabbed my hand from behind I turned around to see him , his face seemed sad , guilt washed all over  his face " I-I am sorry Hay.. " I cut him off " it's okay " with no reason a single tear manged to fall from my eye then another one followed it

don't be so dramatic ! my inner voice ... slapped me again

I wanted to wipe my tears suddenly Niall's palms caressed my cheeks to wipe my them with his thumb giving me chills down my spine , the butterflies inside my stomach started flying ..

" I am so sorry , I acted so stupid I .. "

" Nevermind Niall "

" say you forgave me please " Niall begged

" you did nothing " I gave a small smile and took a step back increasing the space between us

Niall put his hands down , I still feel his guilty face , he sighed

I poked his forehead " don't feel guilty , it's okay .. I am so dramatic " I smiled

" so you wanna go home ? " Niall questioned

" yupp " I popped the p

" I'll take you home then " he smiled

Niall and I walked to the park he opened the door for me and we both got in

gosh ! being with Niall in the same car is still something awkward for me

we chatted a little bit then I arrived , he parked in front of my flat

we got out of his car

" I am sorry again "

" it's okay Niall , I am sorry I shouldn't have cried from the beginning " I stated

we were both standing in front of my flat facing each other

" you can do whatever you want , it was my bad .. " he looked me in the eyes

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sorry for this sucky chapter I am pretty tired and nervous you know school is coming

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thank you guys for everything

have a lovely day

and have sweet dreams for those who are going to sleep just like me hehe

- Zahra'a :) xx