Walking Away Is No Easy Choice(ON HOLD)

Mirror, mirror

~Present~

I look at myself in the mirror; wow you'd think I would've looked different over the year's ae? Pfft nah! Yea I really have my mum's genes. She is 38 and does not look one bit like it, seriously, she looks thirty even( not bragging or anything). As for me, although I am 21 going to 22 I frigging look 18, so momma thank you! I think I am at an average height at 5' 6".

I have my mum's wavy brown hair which flows down to my waist. The weird thing is I have grey eyes with a hint of green. You may ask yourself weird how, well my momzie has brown eyes and so does my dad. I am the only one in the whole family with grey, green eyes; maybe it goes way back to my ancestor, who knows? I really don't care though, I like it, and it makes me feel unique.

I am still standing in front of the mirror, I can't stop wondering if my light smokey blue and black eye makeup with black denims and blue tanks and my grey Adidas boots is too much. I am not going anywhere big, just a class that I've been taking, but it's been a long time since I actually thought of wearing makeup so I think it's acceptable.

I don't know why but I feel like something is going to happen today and I haven't a clue as to whether this would have a positive or negative outcome, hopefully its positive I really want to do well this year, after that eventful night I have dedicated my life to my children, my school/ work life. Lastly my dedication is to me myself and I. I don't need to re-invent myself exactly; I just need to bring back the old me back from when I was sixteen. I wasn't stupid or naive when I had fallen for Him and I loved Him I would never deny that; I just didn't oversee what the future with him bestowed.

Ok Christeen, stop looking at yourself in the mirror now.

"Chrissie I gotta go, I'll drop them off for you okay, I love you, kids say bye to mummy!"

My mum yells. Andre and Adrian run up to me opening their arms out. I bend down and hug them both giving them kisses on their cheeks and forehead. I love my boys; I would do anything for them.

I am still hugging the life out of them when a tear slips from my eyes, thinking about the past gets me angry, why did I let all those things happen? I hear someone clearing their throat, I look up and my mum is looking down on me with an almost pitiful look in her eyes.

"Enough, don't cry in front of them"

My mum mouths to me. I quickly wipe my face so my boys' don't see the tears.

"Well you two gorgeous buggers, I think it's time Nana takes you to school huh?"

I said looking at Andre and Adrian. They have a grin on their face because it's their first day of school. I smile at them telling them that I loved them and to my reply they both blush. They try to be all macho, it's adorable.

"Bye!"

When they left I grabbed my bag, put my textbooks in, with my keys and left the house. It's almost nine in the morning; I think I have enough time to get something to eat before going to my classes, that's my excuse for me going to the cafe/book store, i need to get something there. Entering my car I hear my phone ringing to my man Chris Brown's Undercover... mm it's a mean song and I like J.Cole too but Chris brown is definitely my man...Ha ha I wish ... I pick it up without hesitation knowing full well who was on the other side of the phone.

"Morning beautiful ho-"

Sophia chirped. Sophia had been my best friend since high school, she is bi and people often confused us as couples because when we are seen together we clung to each other like it was the end of the day. Yup, she was um... very touchy nothing inappropriate though for public sake.

She is awesome. The best friend ever and I am very lucky and thankful for having a strong bond with her, she was practically my sister, I will admit though that during the summer holidays of my year ten level we had, um experimented with each other just before I entered a relationship with Him. He who I shall not say his name because it is still painful was my first everything, first kiss, first boyfriend, first everything that romantics involved and he was the last... With Sophia is was out of curiosity and very fun, they say curiosity killed the cat well for the both of it bought us immense pleasure, I mean I liked her and yeah she's hot, but I just didn't see her that way to form a relationship. If my mother ever found out what we did on-