i wish i knew what it's like to not agonize over every detail.
i wish i knew what it's like to know my friends loved me and not doubt that every second.
i wish i knew what it's like to sleep a full night's rest without overthinking moments from years ago
i wish i knew what it's like to be able to hang out with friends without panicking.
i wish i knew what it's like to be in love with living and everything about it.
i wish i knew what it's like to let things go without them overtaking my life
i wish i knew what it's like to eat a meal without worrying
i wish i knew what it's like to take a test without panicking about my gpa
i wish i knew what it's like to perform without feeling as though the world was closing in on me
i wish i knew what it's like to do what i love without any worry about what others will think
i wish i knew what it's like to be happy for more than 2 days at a time
i wish i knew what it's like to want to wake up early and go for a run instead of sleeping and worrying my entire life away
i wish i knew what like was live without this illness
