why should I try at love
why should I put myself out there for my own objectification
for me to hurt again and again and again
for me to get the same response back over and over
for me to be screwed over
for me to be used
to feel pointless like I'm not worth fighting for
for me to feel as if I'm some sort of harlot from the 1800's
for me to only see what I don't want
to be deceived by this game of nice guy
or to be treated as if I'm no more that your mistress
or is chivalry dead all together
or does it give you joy
rather than give happiness through a bond
