The Bet To Break My Heart

26

*Alana's P.O.V*

So it's been a while, hasn't it? Since I joined Jack Gilinsky and the other crazy boys at MagCon. A lot has changed since then. I don't know if you'll like it.

It's been five years, I'm 21 years old now... I have some shocking news. Let me just start from the beginning of it.

So MagCon was amazing, it was a total blast and spending two months with my best friends was the best thing I could ask for. Me and Jack were so in love. I saw him almost every minute of everyday and I've never been happier. Jack was my person, that once in a lifetime person who is absolutely perfect for you. Oh man, thinking back on it we were so in love, I don't know what words to use to explain our incredible love.

But things started changing. Once MagCon ended and we went back to our long distance, never seeing each other, living without each other lives things weren't as good.

We kept things going for about another year and a half. So we were together for almost 4 years, that's crazy for a couple of teenagers. I don't know what else to say but we both changed.

In August of the following year I went to go surprise Jack in Omaha. But when I got there, he wasn't there? Johnson said he was out of town for a reason and wouldn't tell anyone why. To this day I still don't know why he wasn't at his home or where he even was. But here I was hours away from my house and two plane tickers wasted.

In December of that year it got rocky. I cried a lot, we both yelled a lot. It's hard to have an actual argument when you're in different states. We tried facetiming to talk about stuff but it ended up with me crying and not wanting to show him how hurt I was. Then we tried talking on the phone but we would just scream at each other fighting over stupid things that were such a big deal. And then when we fought over text, oh God that was the worst of it. We both said such nasty things and I think it's because over texting you can't really see or hear the other person so you don't need to know how they really react, you don't have to feel guilty. Those nasty things, he would say to me just stayed in the mind and I'm sure the things I've said stayed in his. "You're nothing but a bother" I don't understand how he could have said that to me.

I remember how much I love Jack. I mean, loved. I will always have a spot in my heart for Jack Gilinsky.

Oh I'm sure you want to know what the big break up was. Let me explain.

I went home to visit him on July 26th and we sat in his bedroom in complete silence. All of a sudden, I just started crying. And I could stop. I say at the end of his bed, not moving, but tears just coming out of my eyes.

"I can't do this anymore Alana." He slowly said, avoiding eye contact. I just stared at him through watery eyes. "You aren't happy. I can't make you happy anymore. I don't know what you want me to do!" His voice got louder with every word he said. I could tell at first he was sentimental but now he was just getting mad. "I've tried, I've really tired Alana, but you're impossible. We're impossible. This isn't going to happen. We both can't continue doing this living thousands of miles away."

I just stared at him. He was serious. over the past few months we have brought up the idea of breaking up but I never imagine it to actually happen.

"I don't know Jack." I slowly let out, in a low, quiet voice. I lost the ability to speak.

"You agree with me. I know you do."

"We're just not good for each other right now." He sighed. "Someday we will be, but not right now."

"We're still kids.. You're right." I stared off at the Xbox on his floor. I remember at that moment I had no feeling. I just sat there and felt, empty?

"I'll always love you Alana.. You know that."

"I love you too Jack." I said finally making eye contact. I leaned over and kissed his cheek and as quick as I could I grabbed my bag and practically ran out of the house. I sat in my car in the driveway and stared at the wheel as my hands began to tremble.

This was happening. I just realized what had happened. I quickly pulled out and drove a few streets down to Mahogany's apartment. But before I could get there I had to pull over and I threw up all over the pavement on Ralley Drive. I got into the backseat of the car, I don't know why I did that, it just felt right. And I threw on the sweatshirt that was there and I just sat there, with my legs up on the seat and I stared at my knees.

I didn't cry at first. I was shaking, and felt nauseous but I didn't cry yet. I only started crying when I looked at the ground and nudged between the frond and the passenger seat was an old photo. It was me and Jacks prom picture. It wasn't the 'official' ones that we took but just something goofy in my front yard. I was smiling so big and he just stared at me. He stared at me like I was the greatest thing in the world, and at that time, I was the greatest thing in the world to him.

I couldn't take it anymore, I sat there crying for who knows how long. It was dark when I finally drove to Mahogany's and grabbed my bag and headed for the airport not talking to anyone.

I've had other boyfriends since then, well one. But nobody on this goddamn earth could be better than Jack.

I remember leaving the airport, that was the last time I was in Omaha. And that was the last time I spoke to Jack Gilinsky.

I got home and laid down in bed crying and shaking and puking. This feeling was even worst than when I found out about the bet.

The bet.. That was the start of me and Jack Gilinskys crazy, screwed up, love story. And I wouldn't have wanted it any other way. Jack Gilinsky was a huge part of my life and I will always love him. And honestly, I'd like to take a moment to appreciate the bet. That bet was the start of the best part of my life. And I'll never forget that ridiculous Bet To Break My Heart.

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SEQUEL COMING !!