Once A Extra Allways A Extra

what i look like if you care

Hi. I'm Chloe (L/N). I have long wavy hair. Its also black. I have a sorta fat face. My eyes are on the big said and are also brown. Although I'm skinny im on the short side.(5"2') I'm the flatest thing you will ever see. I look like a 12 year old boy. Yep there's nothing on my chest. OK maybe that's a little bit to much. There is something there. Its just not much....any way
I dress in skinny jeans and hoddies. If not I'm wearing black. I where my hair in a side bun too.

As you can see I dress like any other non girly girl.

But why? If I dress normal why do they hate me? Do they fear me? Or is it me who fears them? Why, why me? Of all the people at school they pick me. I don't stand out so why? Im not weak that's for sure. Is it because I look pissed 24/7? It just doesn't make sense.

"Just kill yourself."
"You'll never find love."
"You look like a boy."
"Lesbian much."
"Emo."
"No wonder you live alone."
"Your parents chose your sister over you."
They all say.

Even the teachers talk bad about you.
"I herd her parents ditched her."
"Well I herd she ran away."
"That girl is nothing but trouble."
"I'm failing her on purpose."
"She is just bad luck."
"I herd she's into girls."
"Really! I wonder what her parents think of that?"
"She's never going to get a job."

You think they would try to stop this. But nope the don't stop. They join in.
It feels like a knife is being pressed into my cold dead heart. Almost as if their forcing me to put the knife in my heart. Almost all if they put the blades to my skin and move them side to side.
The pain is like a drug. It stops my other pain but causes more ones with side affect. And oh boy am I addicted to this drug.

Ever night I repeat the words they say.
And every night I use my "Drugs" to stop the pain.

Thats how I end all my nights.

With that GOOD NIGHT CRUEL WORLD.