novella

she.

she.

she was a nobody. she wants to be somebody. she yearns to be somebody. somebody she could never be. she was a normal 15 year-old kid. she had friends. friends that just talk about random stuffs but had never ever truly cared about her actually. they are only friends for the sake of being friends. why? because they are the misfit. she was lonely. she was not loved by or cared for. but when she turned 16, she wanted a change. a change, she want to be somebody. she wanted true friends. people who cared about her and love her. she transferred schools for this new start. in her new school, she tried to make friends with everyone. people were nice and soon she had what she truly thinks are her true friends. she was happy. she enjoyed school. her life changed from dull and sad to vibrant and happy. but that happiness did not last long. soon she fell out with her friends. a hell lot of backstabbing and lies. she trusted them. she told them about her family. something she hidden deep down inside her. she truly believed in them but to them she was just a joke. she tried. she really did and god knows but did nothing to help her. who maybe will come to her? is there someone out there that will truly care and love her? someone that actually do give a shit about her and will love her unconditionally? is there the one for her? or maybe not. she was a mistake. people make errors so maybe god did too. her birth was an error, a misfit that shouldn't be bore. someone that nobody care for and love. she doesn't deserve anything happy.  she isn't worthy of being alive. she should die and stop wasting resources and polluting earth. she should die. And she did.. the earth is now a better place. and that is her impression of herself but maybe the reality is far from being this? just maybe...