Just hate me, hateing me is simpler than to love me.
You're keeping your heart whole, your mind stable, keeping your head above the murky waters.
You're swimming and living as I'm sinking instead of floating.
Who would ever love my scared body? Why would you even bother with settling on me?.
Can't you see my body? My face? My wrists?.
Can't you see my broken hope? My lost sanity?
The smile you see, it's broken, every second I sit and stare,
I think of the children you and I will never share.
Why would you sit and lie to me as I die silently, sitting so close to you.
Why would you lie so close to me? I've never been pretty.
Why do you complement me if they know I'm ugly?.
Why do you insist on me being skinny when they chant "Fatty!".
You convince me to live as I try to die.
You held me as I cried, told me everything was diffrent.
You called me beautiful, I used to believe it.
