Letters to my first Love

Wishful Thinking

I realized that maybe you really aren't the one for me and maybe I'm really just crazy

I realized I fell in with someone that I could never have and maybe all of those times you held me was my imagination

Maybe well not maybe I definitely was reading too much into our moments, maybe they weren't really moments, they were just fractions of a second and the picture froze in my mind

Maybe I fell in love with someone that can't love me the way I need him to

I think maybe we've just had the longest one night stand in history, you've had my heart for a while but I didn't have yours hell I didn't even have you

Maybe you stuck around because you felt sorry for me, because you knew how much I loved you, and you knew how much I wanted you, and you knew you were all I wanted all I thought I needed and you knew you couldn't return any of it

But maybe you just really didn't want to hurt me

And I know I'm speaking in past tense like the feelings aren't still there they are

I just know that I've done a lot of wishful thinking like thinking you could love me and thinking you would want me thinking you could return every feeling I've got for you

Now I'm wishing this would end and I'm wishing these feelings would disappear I'm wishing I could go back to the moment we met not to erase it but to give myself a warning like "baby maybe he ain't the one for you"

But no matter how much wishing I do we both know that these feelings aren't going anywhere it just 'Wishful Thinking'