The Mistress Of Pain

Chapter 7: I'd rather go blind

Erica's POV

"Do you think I did the right thing?" I asked looking up at Hope.

"I can't say for sure but I know you did it for your family plus there was no other option. That rich guy would've found you anyway and God knows what he would do to Josh. At least Josh has money to further his education," Hope sighed.

"Yeah. It all seems to work out for everybody else but me. For some reason, this doesn't feel right. I'm not seeing myself happy in the near future," I ran a hand through my hair.

"Yeah, I understand you. We can only hope," Hope said, sneezing.

"Where is he? Where's that scumbag that thinks he can take my woman away from me? Tell me!" I heard a voice yell downstairs.

"Get out. Fool, get out!" I heard my mother scream.

I looked at Hope...

Joshua.

Backround music: I'd rather go blind by Beyoncè (Etta James)

I ran downstairs with Hope behind me.

Something told me it was over
when I saw you and her talking.
Something deep down in my soul said, "Cry girl."
when I saw you and that girl
walking, hanging around.

Ooh

I would rather, I would rather go blind boy...
than to see you walk away from me.
Child no.

Ooh...

"Oh so now I'm a fool, huh? I have been good to your family and I've loved your daughter sincerely and you think you can throw that away all because some rich scumbag offered you money!" Joshua yelled.

He approached my mother, "Joshua Mann!" I yelled taking the attention.

"Erica, tell this nobody to leave here at once!" Mom yelled and stomped off.

"I'm not a nobody!" Josh yelled with tears in his beautiful green eyes.

"Joshua! Look at me," I cupped his face in my hands.

"Errie! I just can't let them take you away from me," Josh sobbed.

So you see, I love you so much
That I don't wanna watch you leave me baby...

"I know, I'm the one who always said that we should fight but what's the point of fighting if it's a dead-end?" I asked looking at him with tears flooding my eyes.

"Our love is no dead-end," Josh said.

"Mr King has already signed papers and made transfers. Naty read the contract to me last night. If we try anything stupid, it could cost a lot. You won't be able to go to school and my parents would have to pay double the amount he has deposited and that's millions. My parents made a deal with the devil and I'm bait," I sulked tracing his features with my hands.

"It's not fair," he sobbed.

Most of all, I just don't, I just don't wanna be free
No oh

Ooh... Ooh

"Life's not fair... I want you to take the money and study further. Remeber, you've got no folks and I don't want you to be stranded. I know you'll make it. I wish you the best but this is where we take separate paths," I forced a smile.

"I can't... I don't wanna let you go," he said holding me to him.

"Neither do I. You will always be in my heart. Always. But if you find happiness with someone else, then keep it," I flinched at the thought.

I was just... I was just... I was just
Sitting here thinking... of your kiss and your warm embrace.
Yeah
When the reflection in a glass that I held to my lips now, baby
Revealed these tears that were on my face

Ooh...

"You are my happiness," he said.

"No Joshua, you have to move on. Be happy," I sighed.

"What about you?" Josh looked deep into my eyes.

"I... I... I'll just keep the faith and smile," I forced another smile.

"I can't," I watched as another tear fell from his eyes as he said those words.

"I love you," I whispered.

"Forever?"

"Forever."

He pressed his soft lips gently on mine before wiping my tears and left. I watched as he left and emotion got the better of me. I knelt and wept. I just couldn't watch him walk away.

And baby... and baby... baby!
I'd rather be blind boy than to see you walk away,
walk away from me...

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*tear*

I was listening to this song when I wrote this chapter and I hope you feel the emotion and the hurt of both parties.

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