Tumutugtog,
It's been a while...
Since I could...
Hold my head up high...
Buhay nga naman o, ang galing tumayming! Ano baaaaaa??!!!!
*FLASHBACK*
Hi,
Ako nga pala si Serah... Serah Jesryl Matugas...
11 years old, Grade Six sa Immaculate Mother Academy.
Atlast!! Maghahayskul na ko!
O High School, kay tagal kitang hinintay!
Ngayon apat na buwan na lamang at ika'y abot kamay!!!
Matutupad na ang pangarap kong makapag aral sa isang malaki at pampublikong paaralan!
Sounds weird right? but believe me, i really really want to study at a public school..
E pano ba naman, simula yata ng aralin ko ang pagbigkas ng English Alphabet,
sa IMA na ko nagaaral! para kang bilanggo for 8 years no!
I want fresh air... hmmmmmmmm....
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I was at the uncovered court of our school when my dark, matchstick-like classmate came running towards my direction...
He was focusing at me...
While his hands reached out to me...
He looked at me straight in the eyes...
it all felt alien to me...
Here he is...
Closer...
Closer...
Closer...
My heart was throbbing violently i forgot i was in the middle of a game we call "agawan base"
tinaya niya ko...
DUDE TINAYA NIYA KOOO!!!
baket??????
bakit hindi niya ko niyakap???
ang feeler ko, pero that was what i expected....
yakapin mo ko para kumalma tong puso ko!
sa sobrang disappointment ko, i went back to our classroom...
i was so sweaty and confused...
sabi ng alter ego ko, "what is there to process Serah? nothing happened! nothing you've ever thought of happened! assuming ka eh noh!"
it was so hard for me to recognize the feeling that i was super crushing over Mr. James Mercado, ang pinakamadaldal at pinaka maappeal of all the boys sa class namin.
yah, it all sounded ridiculous that i had crush on him in a middle of agawan base.
haaaa...anyways,
i kept it as a secret. only me and my not-so-bestfriend knew about it. :)
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He, James Mercado, was the one who opened the doors of literary to my crazy little world.
He was the reason why I made trying hard poems and short stories about life and love at an early age.
I was so engaged in writing that I published our every encounter in my scented stationary papers.
You know the feeling of getting pink cheeks whenever he's near.
The feeling of getting super mad at his crush...
The eagerness to impress him with your short stories...
The patience of ignoring all of the judgments...
The feeling of simply being inlove with your friend...
I know this sounds desperate but my plan was to give those to him in our graduation day para cut ties na diba?
Pero ako itong si excited...
dala na rin siguro ng peer pressure...
Kasi lahat ng friends ko may syota na...
Binigay ko sa kanya 2 months before ang graduation...
pero hindi pa buo ang loob ko, may pagaalinlangan pa rin ako.
Kaya pinaabot ko na lang sa not-so-bestfriend ko yung brown envelope na naglalaman ng compilation ng mga write-ups ng encounters namin.
pinapanood ko siya habang papalayo at hinahanap ang payatot kong crush...
matapos ang ilang segundo lumabas na si James mula sa Gate
parang may metal music nanaman na nagpplay sa dibdib ko...
kung makatibok kala mo papunta ng Cardiac Arrest...
Ross, my not-so-bestfriend, gave the brown envelope to James while he is on the vurge of getting inside his school bus....
i can't hear what they are discussing...
i was just watching from a distance...
Imagining all the great things that could happen after he reads it...
when they finished talking, James got on his school bus...
Ross looked at me then waved his hand.
i said quietly, "what a relief!"
After a few minutes.....
i glanced at the window of my school service,
and saw James walking towards me with my hardwork, patience and love...
every second felt like forever when....
he handed me the envelope and said,
"Serah, anong kalokohan to?" then ran away...
I was stunned...
I was Stupefied...
I was....
That was my first heartbreak...
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Tumutugtog,
It's been a while...
Since I could...
Hold my head up high...
Buhay nga naman o, ang galing tumayming! Ano baaaaaa??!!!!
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