Forever And Ever?

Chapter 4

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When I woke up my mom was there with my black skinny jeans my black long sleeve crop top and my black and white converse
"Morning, here are your clothes get dressed and we can go home when your done because, I've filled the papers out already"
"Kk love you mom I'll be right out"

I went into the bathroom and peeled off the hospital gown and put on my new clothes and went back in the room
"Ready??"
"Yeah"
We walked out of the hospital and hoped in my 2016 black Ferrari "why did you bring my car?"
"I thought you may have wanted it"
"Oh"
"Well you can drive mom I don't want to "
"Okay"
"Wanna get some Starbucks"
"Yaasss thanks mom I'll run in and get it"
"What do you want mom?"
"Can you get me a Carmel frapp"
"Kk"
I went in and I ordered a Carmel frapp and a strawberries and creme

I sat down at the table and went on my phone checking social media I see tweets like
I hear that freak is in the hospital again
And more hateful stuff about me a tear rolls down my face but I quickly wipe it away
Someone walks in the door and it is the dolan twins the two who started bullying me after 16 years of friendship
I put my head down and the lady calls my name to get my drinks I run up there and run out I hear footsteps behind me so I sprint into my car and tell my mom to go fast she starts to drive home and when we get there I give her her drink and I remember the rap so I went into my bedroom and wrote down the lyrics and started rapping
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I am a person of survival
But growing up, that was not really my title
A dead soul who was screaming for revival
A young girl who became suicidal
I felt the hits and the kicks of society
Probably the reason why I suffer from anxiety
I was never in the form of perfection
So I became the best example of neglection
They called me names from fat bitch to white trash
To other shit I won't say, it's that bad
They called me up and would always need back up
Call me a slut and say my family was jacked up
Death threats every time I logged on
Always on some other shit, damn here we go again
I was already alone, now I am looking for a friend
Got no friends so here I am wishing it would end
And it didn't, it never did, was always something
Every time I felt good, they would remind me I was nothing
Every time I was down they couldn't help themselves but kick me
It tore me apart, took all the fight I had left in me
I had enough, I was so fucking done
I couldn't face all the drama so I decided to run
But you can't run forever, eventually you'll get tired
So I just stared at the rope, wishing my life would expire
I mean fuck it, if I am really nothing
Then nobody would stop me from taking that rope and jumping
So I took it, tied it around my neck and proceeded to jump
When my mom bust in the door, I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to say
I saw the tears in her eyes, I felt the pain go away
How could I be so selfish, how could I think I am nothing?
When the person who gave me life obviously thought I was something
Now I pray, pray for the people who never saw the light
Pray for the people who still cry at night
And those people will think of my words like protection
Think of them as the light when you fight depression
Cos I know what it's like, I been there before
But for every close room, I'm here to open a door, I'm here to open a door