My Beginnings

Petitioning My Angel

   Written on 5/30/2016

   Okay so first of all, wow has today been a long day. I'm exhausted and decently covered in scratches from my new dog at my mom's (we took him swimming and he jumped on me a bit because he's still a puppy). Yet, my friend, the one that saved me, the angel, still has not returned. I don't even know if she's gotten so much as a word of the message I've sent, or if she even wanted to read them. I may have screwed it all up. I hope I didn't.
   [stored separately for my privacy, even if it will later be published, next bit is end of the piece stored separately]
   I need and want you back. I'm struggling with a lot right now, and I think I may need you to save me one last time. I'm struggling with why you saved me, all those years ago. I'm  trying to figure out why you cared. Most importantly, I'm trying to figure out why you left and trying, with no success, to deal with the probability of it being because I hurt you. So what do you say, angel? Are you willing to save me one last time? Also, you'll probably be able to see who I am now, assuming you get to see me beyond my problems. I'll do my best if you give me a second chance. So are you up to it?