Secret Love Song ~ Phan

Secret Love Song

We keep behind closed doors,

Every time I see you, I die a little more,

Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls,

It'll never be enough

"Bye guys," Dan and Phil waved to their viewers, smiling as they finally completed another successful YouNow. Doing a joint live show didn't seem like it'd be hard but trying not to give away their relationship was extremely difficult.

Phil made sure that the webcam wasn't on before clicking off the browser and once he was sure it was off he motioned for Dan to cuddle into him.

Without hesitation Dan laid his head on Phil's chest while Phil wrapped his arms around Dan.

Kissing Dan's head lightly Phil's eyes wondered over to the closed laptop and wondered why cute and simple moments like these were kept secret. Phil loved Dan but he was meant to hide it, he hated the idea but Dan wasn't ready and Phil was supportive of that, however Dan won't even tell their family or friends and that hurts Phil a lot.

"I love you," Phil said. Even if Dan was reluctant to come out Phil will always love him. Dan smiled looking up at Phil, his eyes showing love and admiration.

"I love you too." And with that the couple kissed.

As you drive me to my house

I can't stop these silent tears from rolling down

You and I both have to hide on the outside

Where I can't be yours and you can't be mine.

"How long is she taking?" Dan asked frustratingly. Phil shrugged looking down the street to see if Cat was close. Phil hide a smile when he realised that Cat still wasn't there, it wasn't as if he hated her, he just got a little jealous whenever she was around Dan.

Phil then smirked when he realised that there was no one in the street meaning him and Dan could be a couple. Sneakily Phil grabbed Dan's hand but he was surprised when Dan pulled away.

"Phil what are you doing?" Dan exclaimed. Phil shrugged looking at his shoes avoiding Dan's disgusted glare, tears making their way to his eyes at the rejection and betrayal, not that he'd let them fall.

"I-I just thought that since there's no one here we could hold hands." Phil explained, sadness evident in his voice. Dan gave him a look of disbelief and stepped away from Phil. "Friends hold hands right?"

"Yeah and what if Cat walked up behind is and found us holding hands? What do you think would go through her mind?" Dan asked rolling his eyes at Phil while ignoring his previous comment.

"You don't have to be so mean about it." Phil blinked back the tears, wiping his eyes just in case. Dan just scoffed and looked behind Phil. Suddenly his eyes became softer meaning that someone was there.

Phil turned around and Cat was walking down the street, oblivious to the arguing that had previously gone on. Cat smiled and waved but frowned when noticing Phil's sad expression. Cat gave him a 'talk to me about it later' look, but Phil knew that he wouldn't. He couldn't because Dan wouldn't let him tell people about them.

Phil watched Cat and Dan talk about something random and wondered if Dan wasn't gay would he date Cat and would he be so determined to hide it? He probably wouldn't. Who would want to hide a straight relationship?

While watching them talk from behind Phil let a few silent tears escape, but no one had to know that. Especially not Dan.

But I know this, we got a love that is homeless