I don't quit remember how I ended up sitting under a tree with the new boy. He kinda maybe led me here..my mind couldn't function. I was having a meltdown of some sorts. Nothing made sense. The boy's lips moved but I heard nothing come from them.
I heard the screaming in my head. I knew it was there and it would never go away. I wanted to make it all go away but I didn't know how to! I couldn't feel my hands and my mouth formed words but I didn't understand what I was trying to say. The tree's seemed to be getting farther away and I was back in the snow running from the voices in my head but this time there was only screaming and screaming. Nothing but screaming. Yelling. The screams turned into loud cries and then into hateful words.
"YOU FREAK OF A MONSTER! IT WAS A MISTAKE TO HAVE YOU!! I HOPE YOU DIE!!!"
DIE
DIE
DIE
I wanted to die...
"Your gonna be fine. Hey look at me. Look at me." My head was turned to look at the boy. Feeling to my hands came back and my lips tingled. Green eyes stared at me full of worry. My face was cold and wet from the tears that streamed down my face. "See your okay..Your Okay.." His voice was soft and low and soothing. The hateful words turned back into cries that turned back into the screams.
The screaming...
"I-I can't...I can't make it go away. They just keep coming!" My hands grasped my head as words fumbled out of my mouth. "All the memories...they wont go away. Why can't they go away!? I don't want to remember! I'm a mistake! A freak!! Why am I always screaming?" It was no use in trying to make them go away. They got louder the more I tried. Logan couldn't save me from me. My own screams filled my head. I screamed for hours every day until I couldn't use my voice anymore. This was over two years ago so why can't it go away!
The boy pulled my head to his and looked me in the eyes. "You've been hurt in the past.." His smooth voice suddenly filled my mind. The screaming was trying to drown it out but I could hear it. "Your memories are only trying to understand just like you. You are your memories. That noise you want to go away is you, and you cant go away. Listen to the memories and try to make sense of them. What are the good things. What outweighs the bad?" His voice made sense to me. It was like he was making it all become easier to ignore the screams.
"Th-The good." I repeated and tried to think. "I met Logan...He saved me." I listed. "I'm no longer there. I'm out into the world...but they can still get me! He won't leave me alone!!" I began to cry and hear the screaming all at once again.
"Hey- Hey!!" The boy yelled to get my attention back. "Your safe at this school. You are away from him."
"YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO HE IS!!" I shouted in frustration and desperation.
Not even a second past and the boy knew what to say. "I DON'T NEED TO KNOW WHO HE IS!" He yelled. "I know he will never touch you as long as you are here. With Logan and the school and me. Okay. He can't get you. The only thing hurting you, is yourself. Understand your memories need to be confronted so they can't attack you."
Suddenly the screaming stopped. Everything went back to how it was supposed to be. My head hurt a bit but I could see my surrounding and know where I was. The boy exhaled and sat back exhausted.
I was in shock. "Ho-How did you do that...?" I asked him.
He lauged. "I didn't. You did." He breathed heavily.
I stood up and staggered. "I..I have....I have to go. I have to go.." I repeated twice and rushed out of there. I ran back to the school. That was freaky. It was weird.
Who was that boy?
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Mutant or Mistake?
Fanfiction"Your wrong...I'm..not a Mutant. Professor Charles Xavier There must be a mistake" Or so Antigany Thought...but shes a girl who can't sleep for her dreams become reality.