Understand Me

Chapter 19

-Imani-
    Today I am going to Kenya's house to fix everything. I feel terrible for what I did and I want to fix it. She has been avoiding me and I don't blame her.

I almost slept with her man, I kissed her man, I beat her up, and I still call her my best friend.

I did my hygiene and put on my clothing. No makeup needed except my lipgloss.

I took my phone and car keys and I was gone. I drove in peace to her house contemplating on how this would all go. If I am blessed it would go great.

I parked in her driveway and got out of the car. I walked to her doorstep and ringed the doorbell.

It took a short while but she eventually answered. Just as soon as she answered she saw it was me and tried to shut the door but I stopped it with my feet.

"Kenya please can we talk? I don't want to hold a grudge against you or have a  grudge being held against me." I begged.

She looked at me for a long while before opening the door enough for me to walk in.

I took the advantage and walked in.

"May I sit?" She nodded and led me to a couch. I sat down and she sat across from me.

"Kenya I missed you, I still do." I started.

"I know you are mad at me, beyond mad. I understand and I don't blame you. What I tried to do was wrong and what I did to you was wrong. I should've have kept my distance once I knew he was taken, by my best friend. I should have backed off and I didn't I'm sorry. And resulting not to fighting was not and never will be the best thing to do. If you could find it in your heart to please forgive me."

"I'm not mad, I'm disappointed. Forgiving you is far away from my list of things to do right now. Keep talking though I'm listening, that's the least I could do for you."

I sighed and continued.

"Before I even told you about August, before I even moved in with him we had a thing going on, it was small. It grew and I got scared because I did not want a remake of Sean and I. I also was Afraid to lose my job because he's Amirah's father and she's my student. If the school was to find out I would be fired. So I rejected him and put him to the side. My rejection did not work because he always found a way to lure me back to him he was just irresistible and I could not fight it off. I got tired of it and soon cut things off with him. I regretted that because he got a girlfriend and I disliked her. I then got a boyfriend and I thought I was happy but I really wasn't. Later Chris cheated on me and I had no one to go to because I pushed people away. August was there and I wanted him to notice me but he ignored me because I ignored him. I messed things up and when he got with you I realized that I let a good man go away. I wanted him back so very much that I did not think of you or your feelings, I just  thought of myself. That's when I tried to seduce August to make him mine but it never worked because he was loyal to you. I'm sorry that you had to go through this because of me. I promise to stay away from your man I promise. Please give me a second chance." I cried.

"Imani...if you were to tell me that you both had history you knew I would have let him go. I would never do that to you." She too cried.

"I know and I'm sorry Kenya, I am I just miss us!" I cried along.

She got up and sat next to me.

"I'm sorry too Imani I was also in the wrong for trying to fight you over a guy. Girls before guys." She laughed through her tears.