To Be Young And So Inlove

Part 4 Of To Be Young And So In Love

When i got home, his words kept playing back in my head. I don't understand. I mean, i like him but i'm not sure if it's in a friendly way or a realationship way. Part of me wants it to be in a realationship way but the other part wants it to be in a friendly way. Ugh !! This is so confusing.
" Nathan, come down for dinner ! " my mother yelled from downstairs. I glared at the door. She knows that i hate that name. That's why i changed it. I have a horrible pass that i don't want to talk about or remember.
I walked out of my room, went down the stairs and headed straight towards the kitchen. There, my mom and dad sat peacefully eating their food.
"Moooommm. " i said.
"Whaaaaat ? " she said in the same tone. I pouted at her
"Stop calling me Nathan. My name is Ryan. Ryan. " i said. She chuckled and said,
"That is the name i gave you when you were born so that's the name i'll call you. Now be a good boy and take a sit to eat. " i pouted again before taking my seat and crossed my arms. I looked away from my food and closed my eyes.
"I am not eating unless you call me Ryan, mother. " i said. She sighed and shook her head.
"Alright Ryan mother. " she said and smirked and went back to eating.
That's not what i -"
"Eat. " my mother cut me off. I huffed and turned to my food before eating .
When i was done, i got up, placed my plate in the sink and went back to my room. ' Oh Kyle. I don't know if i like you ' i thought. I started to sing Don't You Dare Forget The Sun by Get Scared.
" Well i know you're laying back. Contemplating your own death. Well just look at what you've done. Don't you dare forget the sun love. " i sang. I sighed before getting up and rushed off down stairs.
" Mum." I said as i reached to the end of the stairs. She looked up from the television and smiled at me.
" Yes hun. " she said.
" Have you ever been in a situation where you don't know if you like someone ? " I aksed. She looked at me before nodding.
" Sweety what's wrong ? Is that happening to you ? " she asked. I nodded.
" Let me tell you something. You see, when your father and i were in high school, he told me that he really liked me. I didn't know what to say. He asked me if i liked him back and i told him the truth. I told him that i didn't know. He was sad for the whole day at school. The next day i woke up, my mother told me that i got something down stairs waiting for me. I went down stairs and i saw red roses on the kitchen table. My mother told me it was from a young lad, your father. I felt so happy. That was when i realized i liked him too. " She said. I starred at her with a small smile.
"Okay. " i said and got up, smiled at her and went to my room. I layed on my bed thinking of Kyle and wondering what he was doing. ' Should i call him ? ' I thought. Maybe not. But i want to. But what if he doesn't answer. I sigh and rolled around so my back was facing the wall. I grabbed my phone and mummbled,
" Only one way to find out. " i dialed his number and waited for him to answer. After 5 rings he finally answered.
" Hello ? " he said. His voice sounded like he has been crying for so long. I frowned and answered him back.
" Kyle. " it went silent after i said his name.
" Ryan ? " he answered.
" Yeah. "
" Why did you call me ? "
" Umm.... Kyle, can we.. Can we meet up at the park. I um, i need to tell you something. "
"O-okay. W-what time ? "
" Now. " i replied. He sniffed and answered back. I smiled softly.
" One more thing. Please stop crying over me. " i said. I heard a little sob come from the other line. I frowned deeply.
" I-i can't Ryan. I.. I really love you. " he said. I sighed and said,
" I know Kyle. I Know. And i am really sorry that i am making you cry. " he sniffed.
" Yeah well... Bye Ryan. " he said.
" Yeah... Bye. " I replied.