Our Second Life (O2L Fanfiction)

----chapter 12----

Haylee's P.O.V.

I laid their in Zayn's arms and cried. "Baby? Did you think about committing suicide?" Haz asked me. My breath hitched in throat. "What? Who said anything about that?" I asked them. "Baby?" He asked again. I nodded. "Why didn't you tell us? We could have helped you threw it. There's no reason for you to even think about that!" Liam said holding my hand. "You couldn't have helped." I said. "What? We couldn't have helped?! Did you really just say that Haylee?!" Haz yelled shocked at my choice in words. "Yes! You couldn't have helped! You wanna know why?! Because you were gone! All of you! Were gone!" I yelled back. Tears rushed down my cheeks like small waterfalls. I looked at all of their faces. Shock, pain, guilt, sadness. They all had it, mixed into one. I sighed and curled up in many pillows. I felt a hand on mine. Which one made the first move? Liam? Haz? I looked up to see him. Niall Horan. I saw how much my words hurt him. He hugged me tightly. 'I'm sorry Haylee. Please. Never, ever! Attempt anything like that! I couldn't bare to see the one I lo...." He stopped himself. My eyes went wide. I looked back at the lads. They didn't share the same expression as me. "Are you not surprised?" I asked them. They all shook their heads. Even Haz shook his guiltily. I looked back at Niall who's face was red. Who do I really love? This hot, Irish Casanova, or the funny, cute, white boy that I just met. Him. That's who. I love him. It's always been him. It will always be him. I smiled at him. He smiled back. He knows that it's him. He has from the very beginning. I stood up in front of him and hugged him tightly. "I knew it." He said. "I know you did. Niall, it's always been you. I love Ricky though. He's amazing. I truly love him, but...." I felt my heart start to tear at my words. "But what Hay? You choose him, don't you?" He asked. I'm so confused! I literally feel torn. I need to choose now. He's about to go back on tour. I will never get to see him, but Ricky. Ricky is here almost all the time. He's an amazing boyfriend. I would get to see him all the time, other than when he travels also. I have to choose now. Ricky. That's who I need to talk to Ricky before I make a final decision. "I need to talk to Ricky real quick. All of you stay right here." I told them. They all groaned and laid on my bed. "Be quick." Niall said. I smiled and nodded. He looked like he was going to lean and kiss my cheek. I don't know if he was going to do it in front of the lads that included my older brother. He did though. "I'll be back." I told him walking out. I slowly walked to the window and looked down. He wasn't their. I went to his room. I knocked lightly on the door waiting for an answer. "It's open!" He yelled. I slowly walked in. He was laying face flat on his bed. "Hi." I said. He lifted his head. I stood close to the door just in case he reacted in a bad way. He got up and faced me. "Why?" He asked me. "HOW COULD YOU DO THIS AGAIN?! I THOUGHT YOU SAID NEVER AGAIN! WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT HAYLEE!? HUH?! WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT?!" He got very close to me. I started crying again. He was scaring me, he reminded me of him. I never wanted to think of the one person that made me think of myself as a piece of shit that didn't deserve to live! He's the one that ruined my life! Made me scared to even trust a friend ever again. Ricky might have not known what he was bringing back into my mind, but I sure as hell knew. I slid down the door crying in fear. Everytime I used to do that with him, I would either get pulled up by my hair and thrown or he pull me up by my hair and slap me continuously. I looked up at Ricky. His face was red and he was sweating. "We're done Haylee!" He said. My heart broke. He finally relized what he was doing to me. I was already bolting out of his room. I ran to mine and shut the door. He must have not care that much about it because he wasn't coming after me. I guess he never really cared. I ran to my room and slammed the door. All the lads shot up. "Baby!" Haz said hugging me. "Are you okay?! Did you touch you!?" He asked me. "He was acting like....Jack." I said. Niall gasped. "Are you for real?! I'll kill em!" He said storming towards the door. I laid my hand on his arm. "No." I told him. "Who is Jack?" Haz asked me. "I can't tell." I said. "Can I tell them?" Niall asked. "I'm going to cry. When someone talks about him, I have to hold on to something." I said. He grabbed my hand and wrapped it around him. "There." He said. I held onto Niall tightly. He wrapped his arm around me. "Okay. Jack was her ex boyfriend that treated her like shit." He said. I looked at Haz. He was shocked. "You never told me?" Haz said. "No. I didn't even tell Niall. He saw me the day after Jack hit me in the eye when I was covering it up with makeup." I said. "Wow. Baby, I'm so sorry. You should have told me." He said. "Well, I was scared." I said. I looked up at Niall. He tightened his grip on me. He knew how I got talking about him. "He said that if.....I ever told anyone what he did, then he would beat me more than usual." Louis sighed, "Baby. You should have told us. We wouldn't let him do that." He said. "Well, after Ricky yelling at me and saying that we were through, I...." Liam cut me off. "What?" He asked. "Oh. Right. Ricky and I are through. So I'm single now." I said. "I'm sorry." They all said. "Thanks." I looked at Niall. "So?" He asked. "I don't know yet." I told him. "Okay. Take your time." He said. I nodded. "Thank you Niall." I smiled. "Course." He said and hugged me. "Okay. I want Stars! Who wants to come?" I asked. "I do! I want some Hay time." Haz said. "Okay!" I smiled. "What do you all want?" I asked them. "Same thing that you get." Liam and Louis said. "Okay. Zaynie?" I asked. "Carmel Frap." He said. "Okay. Niall?" I asked. "I want just a coffee with..." I cut him off. "With 2 pumps of milk and a little sugar." I said. "Exactly." He smiled. "Okay! Lets go Haz." I smiled. He grabbed my hand. "Bye lads!" I smiled. "Wait!" Niall got up and pulled me away from Haz. "Yes?" I asked. "I wanted to tell you bye." He said. "I already told you bye." I said. "No." He said. I looked at his eyes trying to looking for an answer. I found it finally! "Oh." I said. He smiled. "Can I?" He asked. I bit my lip and nodded. He smiled excitedly and leaned down to my lips. They connected with a little spark. I smiled and walked back to Haz. "Lets go." I said still smiling. He glared back at Niall and we walked out.

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Otayyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!! So, Ricky and Hay broke😢 ,but I have great ideas. I can't wait because Homecoming on the 18th! It's gonna be awesome! I'm so excited!!! I just need a date😁

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