I got bored so I wrote this.
"You won't ever be shit in life. You're worthless." His words were sharp,filled with pain. Meant to kill me a little inside. I just stood there. Quiet. My head down. I was slightly smaller then him. He stood over 6 feet. I was only 5 feet 6 inches. Yet,if you saw me,you would agree I seemed so much smaller. A slap across my face brings me back to reality. I am dismissed.
I'm glad he wasn't angry today.I quietly went up the stairs. My feet took me to the last door on the left. It was my so called room.
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Questions meant nothing. Obeying was my life's purpose. My hand got to the cold door nob and I moved it slowly. Something about opening doors,make me want to vomit.
I move my hand along the wall,until I find the brick that is unlike the others. This one is slightly a different color and more smaller. I put my hand inside it,touching it's cold walls. I find that tiny metal object and slide down the wall,ever so slowly. I feel so much safer. Ha,as if that's even a choice. I can't ever feel safe. I put the brick aside and close my eyes.
I unzip my pants. Those pants that I hate so much. They never protect me much. Nothing can. No one can. I feel along until I feel my thighs. Just like everything,I hate my thighs. I hate everything. I bring the razor to my thighs and go crazy. I want to make sure,he gets pissed. I want him to spit posion out of his mouth.
I want to kill him. Just like he killed me inside.
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I don't remember my early years with him. I just know he loved making me feel pain. I stopped believeing in hell after I met him. I didn't chose to meet him. It wasn't my choice. Fate was cruel.
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"Shit..." I mumbled. One of my cuts wouldn't stop bleeding. Good,I thought. That'll get him very pissed. I didn't care if he killed me. I wish he would. But he had other plans in mind.
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There comes a time in life when you start to hate someone so much,the hate starts eating you inside. That's how I felt about him.
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Noises made me turn my head. He's coming. I quickly put the razor back into the brick. I managed to put the brick back into it's place,just as he opened the door.
In three long steps he was at my side. His eyes went down to my thighs and his face got all red. I smiled inside. "You fucking bitch." Smack. I felt his cold hands on my upper arms. Then his hands were at my neck. Yes,I thought. Kill me now. I made you mad. Do it. But he had other plans. His hands left my neck and that evil smile took over his face. "You like it when you see me mad,don't you?" I looked down. My thigh was still bleeding. "I'll fucking show you,who's in charge." More blood trickled down my leg. I heard a zipper. I hated him. His hands pulled me down,and he laided me out how he wanted...
And that's when I....
