Why did I tell him? I shouldn't have told him. He probably texted Scott. To warn him. Then didn't tell me. No. He wouldn't have. But he did almost text Scott about it last night. No no no no no. You trust Mitch. You're going to trust him and be positive he didn't tell Scott. Even if he did. He didn't say he did so you're just going to think he didn't. Just put on a smile. It'll be fine. But if Scott starts acting differently you ask Mitch. Yes. That's the game plan. Now time to eat. I'm hungry. "Hey Kevin!" I greet as I walk down stairs and into the kitchen. "Ooh. Pancakes?" I ask smelling the food. "Hi! and yeah. We have them a lot. You'll get use to it though!" he greets back. "I don't mind actually. Pancakes are delicious!" I laugh with him laughing along. "Hey Skylar! Hey Kevin!" Mitch says walking downstairs. "Heyo!" I greet back. "Hey Mitch!" Kevin says. "Skylar what's up with the long sleeves? You were wearing them yesterday too. It's not cold. It's like 80 degrees!" Mitch asks me. I look down at my outfit and shrug my shoulders. "Cold to me?" I say more in a question. Why am I such a bad liar?! "Skylar." Mitch warns. "Nothing's wrong Mitch. I'm okay. It's okay." "Fine." Finally the others get down here and we eat our pancakes. "Okay. Well, um, thank you, and I'm just gonna go back upstairs." I say standing up from the table. I put my plate in the dishwasher and before anybody can question me I go upstairs taking two at a time. I close my door and look around my room. "There! My phooone!" I say happily picking it up. OK. I'm just going to sing along with music and scroll through Instagram cause I have nothing better to do! Oh! I know this song! And I love Nightcore so yeah we gonna just click this video and yeah.
"Little girl, terrified. She'd leave her room if only bruises would heal. A home is no place to hide. Her heart is breaking from the pain that she feels. Every day's, the same, she fights to find her way. She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray. She wonders why does anyone ever hear her when she cries? Today she's turning sixteen. Everyone singing, but she can't seem to smile. They never get past arms length. How could they act like everything is alright? Pulling down her long sleeves, to cover all the memories that scars leave. She says: "Maybe making me bleed, will be the answer that could wash the slate clean?" Every day's, the same, she fights to find her way. She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray. She wonders why does anyone ever hear her when she cries? This is the dark before the dawn, the storm before the peace. Don't be afraid, 'cause seasons change, and God is watching over you. He hears you. And every day's, the same, she fights to find her way. She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray. She'll be just fine. 'Cause I know, He hears her when she cries. Every day's, the same, she fights to find her way. She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray. She'll be just fine. 'Cause I know, He hears her when she cries. She'll be just fine. 'Cause I know he hears her when she cries."
I jump when the door opens. "Holy sh- I mean oh my gosh! That was so good! Skylar!" Scott says hugging me. I laugh nervously. "Yeah um sure. I can't sing but oh well." I say looking down at my phone. "And actually the song's about me" I mutter under my breath. "What?" he asks clearly knowing I said something. "Oh! Um, nothing. It was nothing." I say a little too quickly. "Skylar." he warns. "I said and actually the song's about me. I knew the artist and she made a song about me. She never told people it was about an actually person." I say louder. "Wait. But it said...." he trails off. I assume he's talking about me cutting. I show him my arms and legs from where I'd cut. I laugh a little. "Yeah." I saw rolling back down my left sleeve. "Three years ago. There is way too much you don't know about me. I've done many things. Jumped off of bridges and cliffs, gotten drunk, smoked.... Orphanage knows and doesn't tell." I say as if it was nothing. "I've even shot myself before, and almost died. My heart's fragile and my mind is open. I'll do a lot of things without fully thinking. I'd get run over by a car if I crossed a street. However, if you break my heart or do anything it'll be a last time you'd see me." I say emotionless. It was all true. I had done all of those things. I had actually got ran over before too. "I've been through more than your brain could apprehend. I know a lot more too. I could go to college right now if I wanted cause I literally completed high school, middle school, and elementary school in one year. I'm allowed to go to college. Yet, I do the stupidest stuff and I'd be dead if someone hadn't figured out what I was doing." I admit. I close my eyes. "No one knows me well. Not even my best friend." I conclude with my eyes still closed. "And no one ever will." I say coldly. I had basically just revealed my own life to him but I don't think he was listening well. It looked more like he was frozen. I looked into his eyes and he looked into mine. We stayed like that for a long time. Felt like hours. Was probably only minutes. I looked away first. Then him. He shut the door. "Holy sh**" I hear him whisper. "I heard that Scott!" I call after him. "Dang it!" he says loudly making me laugh. Laughing after a situation like this? Weird. Eh doesn't matter. Now I get to fan girl cause I stared into my crush's eyes and he stared back. EEK!!!! Anyways, it is noon and I'm just gonna draw I guess? I don't know. Yeah. I'll draw. Why not?
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When you're listening to a song and then include it in a chapter. Humph. Sorry for the bad chapter but it gave ya something to do! That was a really long chapter too with I think around 1000 words so :D. I'll update this story every Saturday starting next week but I'm probably not going to update tomorrow. I might. Probably not but MAYBE. And that's all I have to say. I don't know what else to say. I guess bye? Yeah. Bye.
