Do you ever just wanna cry? But you don't know how anymore because you've been holding it in for years because big sisters are supposed to be stronger than that and they're not supposed to let little siblings get under their skin? At this point the little things bother me. It's not healthy but I can't help it anymore.
Sometimes I feel a little crazy. I get this jittery feeling when I hold things in. It's like the rush you get when you do something you're not supposed to.
I know I'm being completely random here so you don't have to read anymore. Just venting. I don't even know why I'm posting this.
I'm not supposed to call my siblings mean. But they're branded obnoxious.
I just don't know what to fucking do anymore! We get along sometimes but when we don't I feel like shit and I go through some kind of depression and it fucking sucks!
My sister calls me names all the fucking time and this one time I let this stupid name that wasn't even fucking clever get under my skin and I came up here ranting to cry!
I'm so fucking done with wanting to throw them down the stairs everytime they say something to me! I hate that feeling. I feel awful because I think so hard about how great my life would be if they weren't even here! But that life would suck too! Because I would be fucking psycho.
Just like I am now.
I'm sorry I started this off with a sad depressing rant.
I don't want you guys to leave my rants without some sort of Lesson so...
Lesson: Butter has a lot of fat in it.
