Our Secret (COMPLETED)

It Unfolds

He was introduced to me by a common friend. Were in a chat group with the computer era it was a normal thing to get involved in such groupies. He seldom send even messages its like his just air. You can feel his presence but he never makes a sound.

I can still vividly remember how he caught my attention it was that famous dialogue from an anime I also happen to watch back in highschool he sent it to the group and it immediate got my attention so I replied that I know that line and started narrating my fave scenes as well. We clicked since then but he remains passive and he never opens up. Until such time that he started sending me sweet messages. I assumed it was just random thoughts but when he spoke that he was serious and he wants to court me I told him, "Ok why not take your chance on me."

That phrase of acknowledgement led to exchange of messages and calls. Were 5 hours apart so communicating via internet chats and cellular phones was really handy it pulls us closer. I may have doubts but I simply dismiss them as I keep in-mind I'm giving him the right to prove himself worthy so a benefit of doubt should always be my reason not to judge the guy right away.

Its been 4 months and the cycle continuous I had a glimpse of his family when he narrates it whenever his troubled and I can relate to him in some ways teen drama isn't new anyway were still young and coping up isn't as simple as it sounds like for our age. The group decided to held a meet-up and I took it as a chance to see the guy behind the messages. I told him if he was serious enough he would tell it to me straight ahead personally. He was a bit hesitant but then agreed later on.

Timid and aloof those were my adjectives attached to him when I saw him came in on the fastfood were we decided to meet-up and wait for the others. I can tell how uncomfortable he is maybe because we were all mere strangers to each other I can't blame him for feeling that way but knowing how bubbly I'am I tried to enlighten the mood by smiling and greeting everyone that rolls on until I get reactions from them.

We roamed around for 5 hours I guess a bit tired walking but I can still manage I tried to make exchanges of conversation with him. Tried to make him feel comfortable in the crowd and when he finally did it was 30 minutes before they leave since its gonna be late for them to catch the bus to travel home. He doesn't wanna leave yet so I simply went towards him and kisses his cheeks as I bid him farewell. When I saw him turn his back on me I took my cellular phone from my pocket and sent him a message saying, "Its a Yes, I'm your girl now." That exact moment I felt I did the right thing my hands were cold but my heart felt so warm. He made me feel that warmth.

A week passes and it was the usual routine exchanges of messages, chats and phone calls. There was a day were he literally didn't sent me a message nor did I hear any news about him. It got me worried little did I know he was busy having sex with his ex-girlfriend who happens to visit him back home and did drastic measures to have him back. It took him few days before he admitted what transpire last week. I felt numb I couldn't believe he would do such traitorous thing behind my back when we were just starting as couples he even asks me to do the "deed" with him too so he can compare who among us weights more in his heart. I may have love the guy but I know my self-worth so I decline and just decided to let him go when we meet-up so I can personally bid farewell to our 1week relationship..

Few months past and he was saying how sorry he was for doing such grave mistake against me. I tried to analyze my feelings and I knew it still stings but I'm slowly forgiving him too. That marks the start of our friendship. We may not be an ideal couple when we had our relationship but being friends I'm proud to say we were doing well. Months and years passed unnoticeably. Many changes occur in each others lives. We still try to keep in-touch but I decline seeing him I would create excuses just so to nicely avoid seeing him in flesh. I know it sounds absurd but its better to stay safe than be sorry for the second time around.

6 years and counting we would see each other once a year whenever I feel like showing up on his door. It was magical how our souls were connected and I don't wanna know why as well. I never let myself scrutinize those things and the reasons behind it the lesser I care, the less harm it will cost in the long run. It was doing fine and I must congratulate myself despite being single again after some failed relationship I'm proud to say I've moved on and learned to be mature towards my point of views.

Its gonna be our 7th year this January and for some reason we decided to meet again he brought up a topic which amuses me to hear of he was proposing that since I'm single he was willing to be my bedmate. Of course knowing the long friendship we shared I laugh at his idea didn't took it seriously but fate played a trick on us.

Months past by and my work is fast approaching too. It was on the last week of May when I received a call from him early that morning around 5:19 am. He was sobbing on the other line and was literally crying his heart out. He told me his current girlfriend is breaking up with him and he needs me beside him right now. Despite the distance I crossed all borders to be right beside him as I sent him a message "Don't do anything stupid and drastic while I'm not yet around." It took me 5hours to reach his place despite feeling tired from the long travel I still manage to remain candid and tried to lighten up his mood. We went straight to his place after getting our late lunch out in a nearby fastfood. It was raining so I keep my umbrella up to keep both of us dry until we reach our destination. It feels so awkward but I dismiss the thought I've came all the way just to check on him and I need to talk sense out of it to help him in anyway I could. After we ate he took the box of cigarette and walk towards the kitchen sink as he lit up a stick. I immediately told him to just use one and never to try hitting more specially that I'm around. After 3 puffs of smoke he throw the cigarette he was holding and went towards the sofa were I'm sitting. He sat next to me as I was holding my hand on top of a pillow which was placed on my lap. He asked me to hand him over his phone which is located in the table beside the sofa near my side so I took it and gave it to him. I was surprised when he placed his head on my lap and finds a comfortable spot to stay I let him do as he pleases I knew he needs comfort and that's what he was doing this time. He needs me. I slowly stroked his hair with my fingertips as he plays random games on his phone. I let him do as he pleases while I throw questions regarding his problem towards his girlfriend. He answers back that he doesnt wanna talk about it so I let it pass knowing he might be sensitive and I have to give him space until he speaks up himself. I remain quiet until he spoke back, "Can we do the 'deed' please let me do it with you." I felt he needed me in that way so I let him do as he please when he sits up and lowers his lips to touch mine. And when our lips parted I whispered "Ok lets do it but before we start the deal promise me never to fall inlove with me whatever happens after this." He nods and asks me to climb upstairs where his room is located as soon as he closes the door our secret affair in bed takes its toll too.

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