Isabella's Diary

First page of diary

"Dear Diary my life seems so dark. I lose everything I have. I lost him. And I just can't live without him. I want him back. It hurts so much to go around the school and knowing that I will never see him. I feel empty, I just don't feel anything. I feel lost. Everyone leaves me alone and don't understand me. It's so hard to sit there and to not see his eyes and soft smile. And I don't have someone to tell. They will not understand me. They tell me to forget and live, they say it like it's so easy. It isn't easy to forget someone that I loved whole my life. They will never understand me. I just can't move. I can't breath without him. I want him back. I want to look in his eyes and tell how much I love him. I want to know that I can say to him this but I can't. Because he is dead and will never come back. And I don't understand how someone can tell to forget if they even don't know how it feels. They have a chance to tell how much they love someone when I lose that chance. They will not listen to me, they really don't want to listen to this. Because it isn't they problem, it isn't they hurt. They don't how hard it is to open eyes and smile to everyone telling that I'm ok. It's hard to lie when inside you feel pain. I would give everything to get him back. They sorries and that fact that they feel bad for me will not change anything, it will not bring him back. And I have to live with this feeling. With a hole in my heart, with this pain that no one can take away. They will forget him and I will be the one that will remember it forever. Because I have lost a part of my life. Big part of my life. But still with all this pain I have I will still smile tommorow and tell everyone that I'm ok. And no one will see anything because they don't need it. To them it doesn't matter a pain that isn't they own. Because it's not them that cry every night. I have lost my best friend and I lost my love. My first love. I don't think that someone want's to listen to me, listen how it feels. They just don't have time to listen. In this world each one has they own problems and the problems that are not they doesn't matter. It's even hurt to tell how hard it is to live with lost. And the only one who will understand it is the one who knows how it feels."

She closed her diary and closed her eyes, hopping to met next day.

Maybe he is looking at her now and she will smile for him. She doesn't want to

disappoint him.