A/n: this didn't happen to me but I know it happens to other people everywhere every single day. So I am dedicating this book to anybody that has had to go through this alone.
Prologue:
My name is Lisa Winfield. I am 20 years old. And in the summer of 2012 I was raped... I am now getting the courage to tell people about it thanks to my friends and boyfriend. And I decided to do it in the best way I know how. Write it. Let me tell you about it...
Chapter 1:
*that night*
"LIIIIIIIIIIIIIISAAAAAAAAA HUUUURRRRYYYYYYY" came Katherine's voice from my driveway, I have the house to myself so I don't have to sneak out tonight. Katherine furiously honked the horn. I opened my window and shouted back "IM COMIN HOLD ON WILL YA??" I took a final look at myself in the mirror. Maybe I should put on tights or something, this dress Kayla lent me is a little bit too short and a little bit low cut. No, Lisa you are 17 years old today. And nothing will keep me from enjoying every last second of it. I don't wear make up, but tonight I loaded down my purse with spare mascara, lip gloss, eyeliner, concealer, and eyeshadow. I took a final glance at the emerald green dress and the shimmering matching heels and ran out the door. Well... As fast as these heels would let me. I almost slid into Kayla running down the steps. We met Katherine halfway up the driveway and we all "ran" down my driveway.
We met Alex, Ethan, Parker, and josh the new kid that has been hanging around our group a lot, I personally find him creepy, at the abandoned restaurant parking lot and we all piled into Parker's convertible, I was basically sitting on top of Ethan, as awkward as that was, considering I was dating Parker, his best friend at the time, the even more awkward part was I could feel Josh's gaze on the back of my neck being as how I was crammed between Parker and Ethan in the front. I might have Parker talk to him. He has been staring me down ever since Wednesday when we made this "party plan".
When we arrive to the party the music is loud. Very loud. That's exactly the way I like it. This is the beginning of a new summer and I plan to love it. As soon as we get into the line of the club that somehow magically transforms me into being 21, I can hear the music. This place is HUGE. We all sneak past the door without being caught and I can't see because of the strobe lights in the entrance, then I see neon. Everything is bright colors and glowing in the black light. Me and my friends find a neon pink table and sit down, the guys across from us. We order our drinks and the song changes. This song is more upbeat then the last one. Our drinks arrive and Parker pays. He is such a gentleman. I'm lucky to have him. After I'm done with my drink, I can already start to feel it in effect. Parker leans over the table and asks me to dance. I see josh out of the corner of my eye with a hurt expression on his face. An expression that soon turned to anger and that is the expression that was imprinted in my head the rest of my life.
Parker and I make our way to the dance floor, and I start to dance. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore I just lose myself in the music. I see Parker watching me closely, with him I don't mind because he's my boyfriend. I move towards him and he puts his hands around my waist and pulls me in closer. Me, being the airhead I am, lean up and kiss him, his arms pull me tighter and start slowly moving downwards, I try to tell myself to stop but I am still lost in the music somewhere. I pull away from him and his clear blue eyes start to cloud with something I would later figure out was lust. He whispers something in my ear but I can't tell what it is, but before I could interpret what he said he kissed me again. But not a passionate kiss, an angry kiss, a strong kiss, his hand squeezes my butt and I know what he wants now. I try to pull away but he grabs my waist and pulls me in tight so I can't move. He drags me out the back door, while I am trying to scream but nobody hears me. Nobody sees me. It's like I am drowning. Parker throws me to the ground and as my head hits the concrete I pass out.
I open my eyes again to the sound of someone being pushed against metal I regain consciousness and feel different immediately... It hits me in an instant. I see a dark figure pushing somebody against the dumpster beating him senseless. A car passes on the road and in the faint light I realize who it is. Josh. Josh is beating up Parker. Josh looks over and releases Parker. He starts walking towards me and I take off running in the other direction I run into Parker's car and drive off I start crying my eyes out. How could he do that. Take advantage of me like that. I thought he loved me. I thought he actually cared about me. Pay mind started spinning and the car started spinning with it. The car spun beyond my control and hit a tree. As the airbag crushed me I could only think of josh as I drifted out of consciousness again.
I regained consciousness shortly and stumbled my way home. I will not talk to anyone. I will not go to school. And I will never EVER let any boy touch me ever again.
Chapter 2:
*same time 3 summers later*
I run outside to greet Josh, Kayla, Katherine, Alex, and Ethan. They picked me up to take me to my old high school. I now attend the local college and have a very nice dorm. After that one night I did not talk to anyone until everyone met me as I was walking home one day and I spilled everything. Nobody talked to Parker ever again. I stayed true to my word. I never let another boy touch me. Not even my boyfriend Josh. But he understands why. I wasn't charged for the crash of Parker's car. No one figured out it was me. I am now going to speak to the high school in an assembly.
I step onto the stage and look out at the faces. My eyes meet a girls. She is sitting by herself and she looks damaged inside. I know her story. This is the first of many more speeches to come. I want everyone to know they can talk to someone about this kind of thing. The principal finishes my announcement and I begin my speech.
"My name is Linda Winfield. I am 20 years old. And in the summer of 2013 I was raped... I am now getting the courage to tell people about it thanks to my close friends and boyfriend.and I decided to do it in the best way I know how. To write it. Let me tell you about my book...
