I keep hoping to find a way to stop craving food, this is the shittiest eating disorder ever. Because i cant survive without eating, but when i start to eat, i cant seem to stop till ive eaten enough for three people.
I have asked for help from my dr but she doesnt seem to think a pill can help and just refered me to a counselor. I fucking jate that, she doesnt understand, she contributes my being homeless before to why i cant stop eating. But the truth is that since i was 14 i have been binging. Ingulfing boxes or cereal and three or four boxes of mac and cheese for a meal.
I have cut down alot since las time but here i am still struggling, it seems that every time i get mad, sad, happy, board, or money the first thing i do is go for food....and mc crap is my worst best friend....but i also love to over eat on good stuff like veggies, covered in butter of course. Everyone tells me that its good to eat veggies, but when i sit there and consume 5 pounds all covered in butter, it ended up being too much, and the worst part is that i know that, but i cant seem to stop.
What am i trying to fill that for some reason food cant fill, but i cant seem to stop.
