I Can't Change, Even If I Tried

SNEAK PEEK

THIS IS LE SNEAK PEEK OF THE UPCOMING STORY "I CAN'T CHANGE, EVEN IF I TRIED". THE ACTUAL FULL STORY WILL BE OUT IN AROUND THE SUMMER OF 2015 :D

~SNEAK PEEK~

I'm Sam - well my full name is Samantha Simone Walsh. I really prefer to be called "Sam" though. I feel like the name Samantha is the girliest name my parents could ever think of, and I hate it. It doesn't fit me it doesn't fit who I am. Sam - I am. My last name - "Walsh". Whew, let me tell you about that. My dad - "Robert Walsh III" is Irish. My great-great-great grandfather "Robert Walsh" was a writer and a doctor, who was also Irish. My last name basically means "foreigner" and that's how I feel like most of the time.

I mean, I was born here, in Seattle, but it's just that with my weird skin color, I don't fit in. My mom - "Sandra Silva Walsh" is so called "Afro-Brazilian". Meaning she's a black Brazilian. I'm not ashamed at all to have a "black" mother - quotes on "black" because she's Brazilian - but it's just that I'm more tan than other people.

I get bullied sometimes because people call me either "Cookies n' Cream", "Domino" or "Graham Cracker". Yeah, confused by the graham cracker one huh? Well, it basically means that you're a person who is not completely dark, not completely light, but just mixed with the races white and black. It's so flippin' confusing. I just don't understand. 

Well I could say that my school is big on races. They're not racist, but they have a certain outlook on people who have weird mixes. I'm abnormal. I feel like an alien in that school. I could speak Portuguese and I'm really good at speaking Spanish. 

I'm a loser - nothing. I'm just one of those sixteen year old Juniors that doesn't have a label. If you know what happens in High School, you should probably know that there are these categories and labels students have. 

The most common labels:

Football players (jocks)

Cheerleaders

Populars

Basketball players

Nerds

Goths and Emos

Normals

Druggies

Whores

Class clowns

Outsiders

Weirdos

You know, just to name some. I just might be lucky to be in the "Normals". But even with my few friends - I'm still a loser. 

I got a small "group" of friends: Lucy, Maddie and Sandy. And we seem to be a bunch of weirdos to the real world. But do we care? No. At least we're not the outsiders - the shy, invisible people since freshman year. They're basically just fillers. They're extras in a movie. We can see them, but we don't really care about them. Sometimes I feel like an outsider. 

Oh, and did I mention I'm lesbian? Yes. Lez-be-honest or whatever you wanna call me. But I'm sad to say since my Sophomore year, my friends just didn't know. Still today, they don't know at all. I've had a small crush on my friend Sandy before, but sadly she's straight and she's dating some guy named Tyler.

You must be wondering why I've never told my friends. Well, it's because I don't wanna be seen differently, I don't want to be treated different, I don't want to be labeled as "that lesbian girl". Somehow, my secret may come out, but for now, I have to keep it to myself to survive this hell hole called High School.

I figured out that I wanted my sexual orientation to be lesbian when I saw this new popular girl named Ashley. The cute, big boobed, blonde, popular, girl. I'm not sure, but I just fell "in love" with her. I secretly stalk her Instagram and Facebook page....

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AND THAT'S BASICALLY MY VERSION OF A SNEAK PEEK :D I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE THIS SNEAK PEEK AND LOOK FORWARD TO IT COMING IN DECEMBER! THANK YOU! 

AND P.S - I'LL ACTUALLY POST THE NAMES OF THE CAST! :] 

-Afia