Golden Memories!

Chapter 1

In a place that seemes abandoned,
it skies are blue,
that had high buildings,
destroyed after that bloody war.
I was lying on the coastal,
the waves were hitting me,
I was overwhelmed by death.
I woke up after that bomb that took over my mind and soul.....I got up to see that horribly destroyed city, I knew it wasn't real, I knew it was fictional, it seemed to be. I started crying, cuz as you can see, in this town lies a memorie.
The beginning of it is beautiful.
And the end of it is the opposite.
I cried so hard over that memorie.
At that moment I was feeling afraid, betrayed, regret, yearning. .... All at the same time.
I wish there was something that could make me forget.
If I could go back in time and fix everything. And I thought over and over again
" why didn't I die? !,why didn't that bomb kill me just like it took away my heart?!"
I don't know. But all I know is that I feel lonely as I walked through this city and saw no one, all I can see is destruction.
I walked and I walked and I walked till I saw a really high building, it wasn't destroyed, it actually seemed new, it was so beautiful, it had 20 floors, I know this is crazy but it was golden.
I liked the way it looked so I entered it hoping to find peace and comfort when I suddenly found myself in an elevator, this elevator had 20 buttons, each button held a memorie, all buttons were gold but the last one was red,
I got curious but I decided to be patient. I pressed the first button and it took me to the first memorie, it was when I met a girl, I don't wanna mention her name so let's just call her " Bella", she was new to my school, I didn't like her so much, she sat right beside me in class and she and started to follow me wherever I went and she kept talking and talking she was like a gum, while I was overwhelmed by isolation. Day by day, I started to like her and she became my first BFF, I was so happy, no one has ever stood by my side like that cuz you know I was "the school nerd that nobody loved", she taught me friendship, and I believed in her and loved her so much. I smiled while remembering these memories as I got up to the second floor to find myself packing my bag , I was going to a place far far away from home or where she lived, I didn't tell her though because I knew she was gonna ruin it and I really needed to go there, but I did tell her before I went there, I went to say goodbye to her as she was not wishing me well and I got on the plane as she was holding grudge and hatred and she kept it all to herself. I went to the 3rd, and I saw how much I was suffering in a foreign country, my parents were crushing me and my dreams, they never believed in me, all they ever believed in were money! Oh , how much I hated them. I also saw how I was crying cuz I thought I was a failure. I went up to the 4th where I saw me and Bella fighting cuz she didn't care for me, I remember how much I needed her and all she ever did was telling me " I have other friend and I don't need you.. They can always replace you!" she broke my heart when she said that. I stopped the elevator for a bit, I just couldn't bare that memorie. And after a few minutes I got up to 5th where I saw myself holding grudge and hatred for her, I never talked to her after what she said and I was trying so hard to forget her. I went up to the 6th where I saw her apologising about what she said and done, I talked to her cuz I knew that god answered my prayers, I prayed god to avenge for me and he did, he took away all her friends and she was all alone locked up in her room crying out of regret, she beged me to forgive her and I did but I was so stupid to think that she changed and that she cares now, but I do admit that our friendship grew but I never forgot! I went to the 7th where jealousy has became a duty! Bella grew up and started to love a guy that was never counted for, I was happy for her, at first at least, why? Cuz they only said the L word after a week only from meeting each other and never even told me till after 2 weeks. Bella started ignoring me, she started to forget about me, she was spending all her time with him, so can you blame me for becoming jealous, I knew I shouldn't and that I don't have the right but these are my feelings and I can't control them, so I didn't tell her at the beginning, but it got to the point that I couldn't resist anymore so I told her and she laughed so hard and said "Don't compare yourself with him, you're my BFF and he's my boyfriend and there's nothing and no one that'll make me give up on both or one of you" and I believed her but it was like I never said anything .. Everything was still the same and I couldn't bare it anymore so I decided to ignore her and study hard, and just when I started to ... He came to tell me that they fought and he can't reach her, so I went to talk to her and fix the problem only to find him telling her that I'm in love with him and that I tried to steel him from her , that was he's plan all along.. To get rid of me. And she believed him ... She didn't even try to ask me or hear from she just yelled at my face and never heard from her for months. I hate them both. So I got to the 8th where I was worried for her, back home there was a war going on and I've been having really bad dreams about her so I tried to reach her and tell her to be careful and she said that she's fine and that I don't have to worry.
I went to the 9th to find my self in isolation again except this time I couldn't cope with it anymore, I saw how angry I was .. No where to go .. Nothing to do .. No one to talk to, just sitting all day long, thinking. I got up to the 10th where I found another friend, she was amazing .. She understood me.. And we had the same dreams and goals. I got back with bella though .. She came to talk to me telling me that she left him and she knows everything now. So I let her into my life again eventhough I didn't really like her like before. And so I introduced her to my new friend let's call her"Amy" , we all became friends and it was beautiful, for now at least! I went up to the 11th where I started to have faith in hope again, I found my way to happiness or so I thought. I was trying so hard to make my dreams come true, but as usual, Bella didn't believe in me she thinks that I can never be what I wanna be no matter what I did and that I can never rise and shine, but she kept it all to herself... I got up to the 12th where unfortunately for Bella, Amy told me what she though and I got furious cuz she's the only one that mattered to me and if I only had her support I wouldn't care about anyone else. So I end it with her as I feel like I've been stapped in the heart so many times. I feel like I'm stupid. I went to the 13th where she apologised or that's what I thought but I forgave her AGAIN! and then the 14th where we became 7 friends including me, Bella and Amy, we we're all planning for the future, we all wanted to make our dreams come true and live together.. . But promises are empty. I went to the 15th to find them all ignoring me again, I was sooo sick of them playing with me like a ball that had no feelings at all , I kept it hidden deep inside for soo long that I couldn't take it anymore, I tried to tell them several times but they never listened or understood, of course .. I mean how could someone that never tasted the taste of loneliness understands it?!. I got up to the 17th where the battle begun, I started hearing gun fire and shouting, that's when the bomb hit my heart , and I was condemned to death. I went to the 18th where I gave up on that fight and ran away as far as I knew. To the 19th where I came back to fight again with all my will and power, but this time it was Bella alone. We where fighting and hurting each other with harsh words and empty memories and grudge and hatred. but what's the use of all these years we had together, when there's nothing left anymore?! I finally arrived to the 20st floor " A moment of silence" "DANGER ZONE!" "The bomb has EXPLODED!" "NOTHING'S LEFT!" YES! I realise now that this city is my heart ... the bomb was her.. It was always her ...I realise now that this building is her, every floor, every memorie, every step.. It's all her! She only left a shallowed person now with no feelings. I got up to roof while I'm crying so hard, the pain hasn't gone yet .. It never has and it never will .. It will haunt me forever and ever.. I'm on my knees, crying " leave me alone!!! I wanna live again! I wanna be happy! I've been dead for years and this scar is so deep so just leave me be!" I'm wondering now " will I ever forget?! Can I live without her?! Why can't I just hate her forever?!" I suddenly stopped and looked at her .. I can see her!! I saw her and I can't believe my eyes! she wasn't a picture nor an illusion .. She seemed so real. I've been yearning to see her since I left my hometown, and now I can! She changed, her hair is taller and it's golden now, she had one white lock though. She looked at me and smiled, oh how I missed her .. I wanted to hug her so bad. She stopped smiling and said " I'm sorry"
" and what's the use of that now?!" I said " I know" as she took two steps backwards while giving me her hand as if she wants me to follow her " if I went down, will you follow me?"she said ... I said without hesitation " of course!" I'm afraid now .. Her steps are soo close to the edge. As she got closer .. She sat on the edge, there was no regret on her face .. I can see that clearly, she didn't cry either ... She was trying to pull me down with her, she seemed like she doesn't care if she fell down, she laid back and threw herself off the edge! I paniced .. I was soo scared " Nooo!" I screamed as suddenly everything around me started to fall.. The building started to collapse as well! I knew I'm dying right now! This is my heart after all and it's stopping! I couldn't watch her fall so I followed her as I hugged her so tight and we fell together ... She was unconscious. . The ocean went crazy destroying everything with it ... Everything is completely destroyed and just before we hit the ground I lost consciousness to wake up again in reality , barley conscious, I found myself in a small hospital room ... There was no one around me , no family, no friends . Just bella on the bed next to mine .. Dying while doctors are trying to save her but they couldn't ! She died! All the good memories and the bad memories ... And now she's dead ... She's dead! THE END!