the fan boy

                     chapter 2

he thought that having a favorite kpop artist would be easy like a walk on a beach but he was wrong,critism came so fast that he was caught off guard.

the first problem that he faced is his wife because  he is a married guy and he was struggling to make ends meet.

why would you waste your time listening to those cheap chinese speaking people and they called themselves a singer?

his wife said

honey music isnt all about language its about how it makes you feel when you are listening to it,not because they speak different language doesnt mean that you cant enjoy their music and correction please they are koreans not chinese..bobby replied

even so theyre all the same,instead of wasting your time with them you should spend all your time with us,your family,you are not a teenager anymore youre an old person living in a fantasy world of your own,get out of that place and start living in your true world..

but theyre music makes me feel good and relaxed when i feel stressed,you know that we are not in a good situation right now and we should not let it consume us,we should be positive and girls generations music is giving me positive energy and lets me forget about the struggles were facing right now

bobby said to his wife

i dont give a damn about positive or negative thoughts what im thinking is how we can get out of this miserable life we have!!its your fault because you only think about music and koreans..if only they can help you earn money i will be happy..

bobby felt down because the person he thought would understand him the most was the first person to shut down his hope.

why would she talked like that to my favorite group?she even has her own favorite artist and im always supporting her and even bought her cd's of them but when it comes to my happiness she wouldnt let me?he said to himself

just to stop the argument he just keeps his silence and try his best not to speak about them anymore when he is in front of his wife

days pass and hes still searching more information about his favorite kpop group in secret afraid that if his wife founds out again it would create a bigger argument

he went to computer shops if he has a free time and try to search as much as possible about girls generation

i want to know how they started and learn all the hardships and trials that they overcome before they become kpops most successful group"he said to himself

i want them to become my inspiration and i know that a lot of people like me around the world look up to them as inspiration too,because nothing comes easy in this world,everybody has to struggle just to get what they want in life

he browse the image category on google and there he saw all the members photos and he noticed one member that stands ahead of the rest of the members

who is this blonde member who looks like a living barbie doll?,what is her name?

he has no idea about the members names because its only a couple of days since he first heard and saw them.

so he changed the category of google search from images to web and there he found out all the members bio and with matching photos

ahh so her name is JESSICA JUNG what a beautiful name!!

she was born in the united states along with fellow member tiffany hwang,cool

OMO she spent 7 years of training not knowing if she will debut as part of girls generation or not,but she still continue training without fail!!,what an awesome drive and determination she have!!

all of a sudden bobby feel proud of her

i wish i was like her too but my problem is i give up easily when i fail,.well i have to change that and i will set her as my inspiration

from now on JESSICA JUNG will be the number 1 member that i will support, although i love them all as a group but for me jessica touches my heart and she was soooo beautiful!!,,i want to meet her someday if GOD would allow

he said to himself with excitement,

if only i could share this with my wife so she can be inspired too but if i tried maybe and im sure she will get jealous and she will start bashing me again,so better keep it to myself..what a pity of a life i have..