Shadows With Tears

Chapter 5

I went home, slightly confused, but overall, relieved that the day was over.

Not happy, but relieved.

I spent my time in my room, staring at the ceiling and thinking.

I had a headache when I tried to listen to music to block out my thoughts, so I decided I should probably try and think some of this through.

I might like Stan more than a friend. Even if he sees me as a little less than a friend.

So, at least I know I'm going to end up disappointed. It's not like I expect him to magically like me back.

I know that life isn't a fairy tale.

I know that there's pretty much no way he'll like me back.

I know that if I think he will I'm just setting myself up for failure.

And, I don't want to make myself anymore disappointed with myself.

Especially if it's over something as trivial as this. As stupid as this.

Maybe if I just ignore it, I'll just get over it. Or if I just force myself to get over it.

I know I'll get over it soon.

Really soon.