Chapter 1:
My life has always been messed up. I have ADHD, and I've got family problems; Which led me to have no friends, plus getting bullied at school. I've always tried to look like I never really cared, like I could care less. But I always knew that it was just an act. I do care. I really do want to have friends, and be popular, and have a good family. It was every girl's dream, I knew that. But still... if only I had just one day to experience what it was like to be a happy, ordinary girl... that would be enough for me.
But of course that would never happen. No one cares about me. And anyways, I had other problems to take care of right now. Such as paying attention to Mr. Connor. Or that he just called on me. Sigh.
"Ms. River, please don't make me repeat myself. Come up to the board and answer the question," Mr. Connor was getting impatient.
I got up, not wanting him to start yelling at me. As soon as I got out of my seat, everyone started snickering. And I knew why. It wasn't like it was anything I wasn't used to. They were laughing because of my clothes. They were ripped, weathered, and smelly. Just like all my clothes were. Everyone else in the school was from either a middle class or upper class families, wearing clothes that you could find on the front cover of a magazine. Of course, me, being part of a poor, uncaring family, we had no washing machine. Mr. Connor wrinkled his nose when I passed by to take the marker from his hand. Typical.
I studied the question on the board. Easy. I quickly jotted down the answer on the board, handed the marker back to a still wrinkled nosed Mr. Connor, and went back to my seat. There were still a lot of people that were laughing, and they didn't stop until Mr. Connor started talking again.
"That is correct, Ms. River. Very good. Now I would like everyone to turn to page 274 in their math textbooks..." Mr. Connor kept talking. I, on the other hand, went back to daydreaming about my dream life.
A few minutes later the bell rang. "Everyone, your homework for tonight is page 278 in your math textbooks. And yes, I want you to do all of it,"Mr. Connor said pointedly to a few of the complaining students. "Ms. River, I want to talk to you for a few minutes." I sighed inwardly. What did he want to tell me now?
Once everyone let the classroom for lunch, Mr. Connor turned to me. "Ms. River, I've been noticing that your grades are a bit higher than the rest of the student in my class. You seem to be very good at math. What I wanted to tell you is that maybe you should try out for the math club. It could be a very good opportunity for you."
Right away, I shook my head. There was no way my parents would allow me to be part of something like this. Not in a million years.
"Just think about it," he persisted. "You never know, you might really like it."
"I'm sorry, Mr. Connor," I said. "I'm just not really into it."
"Okay... well then I guess that's the end of it. You'd better get going." He looked very disappointed. Oh well, it's not like I could do anything about it.
And besides, I thought as walked down the hall to my locker. It wasn't the first time I had declined something like this. Many of the teachers had told me the same thing. But again, I couldn't do it. And I didn't really WANT to do it. Clubs were for nerds, which I was not. At least nerds held some place in the social ladder. I didn't. I was an outcast, and no one liked me. I was just someone who was used to make fun of whenever they tripped or did something embarrassing.
When I was just a few feet from my locker, I noticed someone else was already there, seemingly dropping some piece of folded paper through one of the slits. That was odd; everyone else was already in the cafeteria. She and I were the only ones in the deserted hallway. When she was done, she giggled and ran away, not even realizing that I had seen her do the whole thing. Once she was out of sight, I hurriedly unlocked my locker, wanting to see what was on the sheet of paper. I took it out and unfolded it. My eyes widened when I read it. It said:
Go die. It's probably better for you.
I broke down and cried.
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Okay!! i'm done!!! so yeah i hoped you guys like it. i know it may seem a bit too fast, but i guess thats just how i write. :) okay comment, fan, and vote if u like!! thanks!!!!!!!! :D
