Chapter 4
Nialls POV
Why was I falling for her? Theres something about her that draws me in. I never feel this way about my clients.I shouldnt feel this way about my clients. We both know there will be absouluty nothing happening between us. She only wants sex. And that's all I want. But maybe I want more than that... NO! I can't. Not again. I can't let it happen twice. Last time was terrible. Not again....
I shook the thoughts from my head as I made my way to the kitchen. I had left Kacie in the bedroom so I could sneak in and grab breakfast. I could smell the aroma of bacon fill the air. I walked into the kitchen and saw Harry scrambling eggs inside a pan. He greeted me with a smile and a flash of dimples. A stack of pancakes were set on the counter, next to a big plate of bacon and a pitcher of orange juice. Damn I'm hungry. Doing it 24/7 really tires ye out.
I hopped onto a stool and sat while Harry finished up the eggs. I poured a glass of OJ when I saw the other lads walk in. Zayn was the first to speak.
"Niall.... We all need to talk to ya." I looked over to Harry to see he had stopped stirring the eggs and was now paying close attention to our conversation.
"Eh... Sure. What about."
Zayn sucked in a deep breathe and released.
"Listen.... We know about your... Decision of being in a... Sex club. But it needs to stop. You aren't the same Niall we know and love. Every since Han-"
"Don't you dare say her name in this house." I spat out bitterly.
He continued. "Every since... You-know-who left, you haven't been the same. Instead you ran off to a sex club to take away your problems. It's just not right. It's not healthy. We all think it's best that you stay away from the club. It's obviously not doing you any good. So please, could you just try and-"
"NO! I will not listen to you guys! I'm a grown ass man and can do whatever the hell I feel like doing! And that means I can fuck whatever worthless slut I want to! Why can't you guys just leave me alone and not care what I do?!" I crossed my arms over my chest in anger.
"Because we're your friends and we want what's best for you. And selling your body to underaged girls for sex is not a good way to go, Niall." Louis said.
I was frustrated. Why the fuck can't they just let me do what I want and not worry about 'Whats best for me'? If they were real friends they wouldn't worry about it!
"Well I like what I'm doing now. If you can't support me in it, then.... Then why do I call you friends?! Obviously you won't let me do what I want."
"Niall, you can't always do what you want. Sometimes, it just isn't safe. We know you're only doing this to solve problems over You-Know-who. You need to figure out a way to get over her in a positive way. Maybe I can call Dani to see if she has any single friends? We're gonna help you Niall. Whether you like it or not." Liam said dialing his phone.
"NO! I mean.... Don't call Danielle. We don't need her help. Maybe.... Maybe I already have an eye on someone..,"
"Really? Eh, who?" Harry asked. I looked over to him and saw his jaw tightened and his hands were in fists. His eyes looked a mixture of hurt and anger. What the hell's his problem?
"She's upstairs right now, actually....." I said rather quietly.
"She's one of your clients?! Niall... I don't know if you can. I mean go out with her. Shes using you for sex. Those are her only intentions with you. I think you should go for someone who isn't a sex addict." Liam said broadly.
"She isn't some random client! I just.... I feel something with her. Yet, I haven't even held a conversation with her. It's so... Weird. I-I really like her..." I wasnt actually sure what it was I felt. But it was something along the lines of 'like' It's just weird that im already wanting to... To date her! But I'm just afraid. Afraid of what'll happen when we're dating. Just like Hannah.... NO! If I possibly had feelings for this girl, I'd have to accept them. And I wouldn't let the thoughts of my lost love get in the way of my possible new love. I have to make this work.
"Okay, Niall. You seem to be in deep thought about this girl. I guess you should give her a shot? Try and ask her out later, mkay?" I nodded at Zayn.
I and went upstairs. I had to think about this. I walked into the guest bedroom, Kacie was still asleep in my room. I sat on the edge of the bed. Was Liam right? Was I only trying to escape my horrible memories of my past,with some weird sex club? And oh shit. How am I going to ask out one of my clients? No, she isn't a just a client. She's..... special. I'm gonna have to try. For her. For me.
I'm gonna try.
Try to love again.
End of chapter 4
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Written by @Matthew5678
