I'm walking out... this room holds nothing but my true loves body.
I feel tears start to fall down my cold cheeks,
as I'm walking the nurse comes.
Nurse- there she is! Ada where did you go?
Me- it's not important....
I look up and try to blink the tears away.
the nurse walks me back to my bed that I use to be on. I lay down and I feel nothing but pieces of my heart breaking even harder.
Nurse- Ada, were going to take you to room 219,
I take a deep breath and drift off into what I think is sleep.
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I wake up with a slight head ache.
Me- what time is it?
Person- 10:45
my eyes shot open. I thought it was Niall but my eyes meet Jacob.
Jacob- oh hey calm down its just me.
Me- how long was I asleep?
Jacob- 3 days.
I look around. still in the hospital.
Me- w-where's Niall....
Jacob looks at the floor.
the silence in the room seems to last forever.
Me- Jacob, answer my question.
he looks up at me with what seems like hurt in his eyes.
Jacob- Ada, you should rest.
Me- No. Jacob tell me where he is!
at this point I start taking off all the things connected on me.
Jacob- no Ada stop. He..
Me- he's gone isn't he...
Jacob- Ada I'm sorry...
Me- please leave.
Jacob- but
Me- please.
Jacob gets up and heads for the door.
Jacob- Ada, I truly am sorry... that should have been me.
I look at Jacob, he has tears in his eyes. I feel like a total b*tch. now.
Me- don't say that.
Jacob- its true. Niall was so in love with you that, now he cant show it..
I feel tears falling down my cheeks. he opens the door and walks out.
I lay there, thinking about what it would have been if me and Niall had made it out together.
I look out the window and I see white things everywhere. its snowing.
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as time passed. I sit at home with a cup of tea looking out the window. it's snowing lightly. I got out the hospital a week ago. I called my mom to come get me because there was no point of me staying there, the love of my life died. it brings nothing but memories I don't want to remember, but they'll be with me for as long as I live.
I have been crying a lot lately. I wake up with my pillow having tear stains on it. I cry in the shower. I once had a thought cross my mind while being in the shower. dying do I could be with him. but I had a feeling that he wouldn't want that..
