I remember the little moments I've been happy. Some times I shouldn't have been happy. I can recall smiling so hard that my cheeks were hurting. But when you become a mother or a father, you realize what real happiness is. When your child is first born and you hear it crying. You've accomplished something so great. When you hold your child for the first time. You fall in love with some one that will never break your heart. Children are just amazing in every way possible. I have never fell so deep in love in my life. You can fill children with things your parents never filled you with. In a sense, you are creating the person you have always wanted to be. Children know when something is wrong with you even if you don't. They feel your pain. I remember having visits with my son. It was time for us to go home. I was smiling on the outside but on the inside I was falling apart. I was trying to be strong because I didn't want my son to get upset.
"Okay baby, lets go." I said
At that moment my son looked me directly in my eyes. That 2 year old boy grabbed on to me and said,
"I wanna go home with you!"
I tried to reason with him, or distract him. He just kept looking at me with those gorgeous blue eyes and saying,
"NO!"
It was breath taking that he was intelligent enough to look into my eyes and see something wasn't right. When you're around kids you do things or say things you think that they don't understand, they do. They might not understand your words but they feel your emotions. When I first brought my son home from the hospital all he did the first night is cry. I was loosing it because I couldn't figure out what was wrong with him. He wasn't hungry, his diaper was clean, and he wasn't running a fever. When I started to cry, he started crying even louder. My mom said to me,
"Don't ever let him see you're upset, It'll upset him even more."
I never believed her. But now I do. Due to the fact that I've matured enough to see it. When a child is born, God instills part of his soul into it. That is why children touch our hearts like they do. Children are definitely blessings.
