Beep! Beep! Beep!
I sluggishly drag my finger across the screen to turn off the alarm I set on my phone. "Today already sucks," I said to myself.
I hate today. Today is February 15th. Valentines day was yesterday. It was the worste day of my life.
I quickly change my clothes and grab my stuff. No time for things like showers or brushing my teeth. I bolt out the door and quickly head off to my bus stop. I see the people I've seen for years. Nothing has changed here. It never will.
I go through the day as if everything is fine and dandy. Heading to my next class, I see him. My eyes immediately look away and I continue to walk by as if he isnt there. Tears start to swell in my eyes, but I quickly wipe them away.
This is the affect he has on me now. This past week has been horrible, but yesterday? The worste. He finally told me the things I needed to hear (although some I really didnt need to hear). I know that parts of all these feelings are caused by my depression, but not all of it. He was perfect. I fell for him faster than I thought possible. One night was all it took for me to love him. He didnt feel the same.
I go on the bus and go home. I see my mom and act happy. I see my brother and I glare at him. I know it's not his fault, but I still have some anger towards him for it.
I told you, today sucked. Nothing happened and nothing ever will happen.
Oh, I never told you my name. It's Damion Helling. And the guy I'm talking about? His name is James.
James Sterling.
